I knew things were going to be okay. Although I have two math homework assignments, two japanese homework assignments, one math midterm, one ece midterm, one ece homework assignment, and the rest of my life to proceed onwards with, I know things will be okay.
Although Eli and I just announced out loud for the first time the sacred "L" word, we know we have priorities this week to occupy ourselves with. Because we are a team, I know we will be okay.
Money is tight, 'tis true. Money is hard to obtain, 'tis also true. But if I start budgeting myself, and managing my time wisely, I know it'll be okay.
I feel a little stressed, but because I'm a positive person and know how to focus looking at the brighter side, I will be okay.
Good day for now.
Monday, May 19, 2014
Sunday, May 18, 2014
I've Been Told
There are many things in life I choose to forget, but there are some things that I can't forget.
I don't regret my timing or what I said, but I do resent that I could've presented it better instead of at 2am in a bunk bed spooning you form the back. Okay, maybe I regret a little bit but let me grieve the 5 stages.:)
You are not him, but my Him. I just compare sometimes because of the things that I can't forget. And I think I'd be okay if you also felt that same way because I'm not her, just your Her. Love is supposed to be fun, it's supposed to be plain and simple. But isn't that what we all want? When I hear my cousin talk about her life that only consists of waking up, school, church, sleeping; I can't help but envy it a little bit because in a perfect world I would spare myself of all trial and error that I notice, but I don't.
He is not Him, and He's not like him. I've gotta discern that they are completely different.
(I should use name I guess)
Deveon told me over and over he was sorry, that he wanted to take it all back. What am I going to do? I don't want this to be another Deveon situation. And it probably won't, but I can't forget it. If I close my eyes for just a second, it all flashes before my eyes as if it all happened yesterday. I lied to Eli, I'm scared. I put myself out on the table, and now I'm over thinking which shows I am scared. I need to stop. Or else I'll be hypocritical.
Slightly anxious,
Nikki
I don't regret my timing or what I said, but I do resent that I could've presented it better instead of at 2am in a bunk bed spooning you form the back. Okay, maybe I regret a little bit but let me grieve the 5 stages.:)
You are not him, but my Him. I just compare sometimes because of the things that I can't forget. And I think I'd be okay if you also felt that same way because I'm not her, just your Her. Love is supposed to be fun, it's supposed to be plain and simple. But isn't that what we all want? When I hear my cousin talk about her life that only consists of waking up, school, church, sleeping; I can't help but envy it a little bit because in a perfect world I would spare myself of all trial and error that I notice, but I don't.
He is not Him, and He's not like him. I've gotta discern that they are completely different.
(I should use name I guess)
Deveon told me over and over he was sorry, that he wanted to take it all back. What am I going to do? I don't want this to be another Deveon situation. And it probably won't, but I can't forget it. If I close my eyes for just a second, it all flashes before my eyes as if it all happened yesterday. I lied to Eli, I'm scared. I put myself out on the table, and now I'm over thinking which shows I am scared. I need to stop. Or else I'll be hypocritical.
Slightly anxious,
Nikki
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