Freeze, shift, and turn.

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Her heart was beating and wished that he would turn around, but he wasn't going to unless she did something. Heart racing, "Joshua! Come here real quick!" The moment she was waiting for... At first he didn't stop walking, but when he reached his car he turned around and shouted out "What?"
She said breathlessly "Come here for a second!" She beckoned him to her area. He laughed and started walking towards her. She decided to meet him in the middle where the house and the shadow of the cherry blossom tree covered the two of them. Her mind was spinning as she reached him. "I gotta tell you something." She looked down and played with the black wrist band.
He squinted through his black rimmed glasses and sighed. "Alright, what is it?"
It was quiet for a couple of moments as she fiddled with her wrist band, and the pockets of her jeans. She took a deep breath, looked him square in the eye which startled him causing him to take a minor step back.
"I'm sorry." He looked frozen for a moment, shifted his feet a bit, and just stared at her. She held her breath for what seemed about 1 whole minute until he spoke.
"What do you mean you're sorry?" He asked tentatively.
"I'm sorry for everything. I'm sorry for not being the greatest girlfriend I can be. I'm sorry for not bringing myself to talk to you because I was either shy or terrified. I'm for being so much younger than you are, and I'm also sorry for saying yes, and I'm sorry for ruining your li--"
"Whoa, stop there. Mori, I don't want to hear this. What did I tell you like a year ago? Stop saying sorry. Just stop. You didn't do anything. Just ;et's not talk about this, ok? Isn't this done?" His eyebrows squeezed together the way mad angry people do when they want to blow up their head because of frustration. "Just drop it, okay? Please... We both don't need this right now. Besides, Mori you told me yourself you don't have any feelings left, remember?" She just stood there as if frozen. She nodded her head slowly. Remembering how idiotic this was, she just had to let it go and swallow her aches and pains once again. She really ruined his life, she didn't want to ruin it anymore by causing him stress or grief.
"You're right, Kuya. Aha. Sorry, weird moment right now..." She smiled a bit to act as if she meant what she was saying. "I just was being weird. Haha, probably some weird girl period thing. Ahaha."
"It's okay. Just forget it, okay?" He smiled sending a string of tingles that soared throughout her body. But she ignored them. "I'll hopefully see you at church on Thursday. See you later." He squeezed her shoulder and just smiled which plucked the strings of her aching heart. Then he turned. Turned and started walking off. She stands still as he almost reaches his car.
As she realizes what is happening unthinkably she runs. She reaches him and holds onto his wrist and as skin touches he freezes. He doesn't turn around, she doesn't say anything. Minutes of silence pass. Standing behind him, grasping his wrist, she leans forward whispers "Your personality and smile brighten my dim universe. In this one life, I can not find myself to love any other. There the sound of your voice ringing in my head, and your face pasted in my fast-pacing heart, I will never ever be able to forget you." She leans back and lets go of him. As she shifts her body the opposite direction of him, she takes a step forward and hears a slight whoosh and as she looks behind her he has turned his whole body and literally ran in front of her. His chest is heaving as if he's out of breath. She tries to read his body language or face expression. She tilts her head and makes an expression of confusion and slight discomfort. Silence fills the air around them, thundering in her ears causing her heart to speed up and her palms sticky. Thinking that he might not have a thing to stay she steps back and is about to turn when she is grabbed and pulled into a sweet embrace which human beings call a "hug".
His arms around her, a simple reflex was to do the same.
And she buried her face into his shoulders and started sobbing.

1, 2, 3, 4
Plain White T's
One, two
One, two, three, four

Give me more lovin' then I've ever had
Make it all better when I'm feelin' sad
Tell me that I'm special
Even when I know I'm not

Make me feel good when I hurt so bad
Barely gettin' mad
I'm so glad I found you
I love bein' around you
You make it easy
It's as easy as one, two
One, two, three, four

There's only one thing to do
Three words for you
(I love you)
I love you
There's only one way to say
Those three words
That's what I'll do
(I love you)
I love you

Give me more lovin' from the very start
Piece me back together when I fall apart
Tell me things
You never even tell your closest friends

Make me feel good when I hurt so bad
Best that I've had
I'm so glad I found you
I love bein' around you
You make it easy
It's as easy as one, two
One, two, three, four

There's only one thing to do
Three words for you
(I love you)
I love you
There's only one way to say
Those three words
That's what I'll do
(I love you)
I love you
(I love you)
I love you

You make it easy
It's as easy as one, two
One, two, three, four

There's only one thing to do
Three words for you
(I love you)
I love you
There's only one way to say
Those three words
That's what I'll do
(I love you)
I love you
I love you
One, two, three, four
(I love you)
I love you
(I love you)
I love you

Pokemon.

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OH MY GOSH.

All I can say is Oh My Gosh. You know what? I'm really lucky. I really am. Why have I been complaining and all weird for the last couple of weeks? Oh yeah, PMS and period. Thank gosh it ended yesterday!!! Haha.

My birthday was amazing. It was one of the most memorable one. But I gotta say last year was better with practically 3 birthday parties, but this year all my happiness happened in one day, and ON my birthday haha.

People who made my Bday special;
-Morris.
-Alison.
-Sandra.
-Joanna.
-Richard.
-Mrs. Coble.
-All 4 tech teachers. (Esp. Mrs. Egbert!)
-Camillo.
-Matt.
-Mohammed.
-Whole 5th Period.
-My Mum.
-Zach and Sean.
-Kuyas (Mark, Angelo, Josin, Darrion).
-David.
-Audars+Castros.
-My Family.
-God.

TERMINATOR SALVATION!!! AUGHS. Gotta watch that whole series someday. Haha.
Special thanks to everyone! I love you people. Haha.

BWAHA.

Yesterday: Realization/Epiphany hit.
Today: 365th day of being _4 years old. Snapz.
Tomorrow: _5 years ago, I was born.

Yesteday I had an emotional breakdown before going to church. So much stress and incapability of handling balance. I felt not alone or lost like I usually say, but all I could say is that I felt defeated. As if it's finally just time to give up on life. Reasons being; I keep losing everyone I love who are around me, no one can completely understand me neither can I towards myself half the time, I don't think I'm making a difference to this unearthly planet at all, and just I can't seem to ever be at ease whispering "Hakuna Matata".

To be Cont. (my mother, dangit.)

Frailment.

Listen, I will hear you.
One glance at you pains my soul.
Loving you is a gift God has blessed me.
All is well, for I am here always at your bedside.

Initially you are old on the outside.
Now is the time for you to pass away time.
Ay nako, sa ma hall kita.
Never forget all the ones who are here for you, po .
Gracious and beautiful you are on in the inside.


I love you Lola Inang.

MNM_Confucious

Confused. Will be for awhile.


"The truth is that our finest moments are most likely to occur when we are feeling deeply uncomfortable, unhappy, or unfulfilled. For it is only in such moments, propelled by our discomfort, that we are likely to step out of our ruts and start searching for different ways or truer answers."
-M. Scott Peck.

What is Friend?

A friend is someone who knows you better than anyone else-
Someone who can sense how you're feelin just by the sound of your voice, and understands what you're saying,
even when there aren't any words...
A friend is someone who takes your deepest secrets adn tucks them safely away, and believes in the dreams you keep closest to your heart.

All I can say is that "Friends don't come any better than you". You dedicated to me, my dear, and now I must do it back. You are aching, in pain, and lost at times. I'm never there anymore, but there are times when you can't stop laughing, and you feel so lucky in life with what you have that you just can't help but smile. Let me say what I need to when I know you don't expect anything anymore...

"You will always be my best friend... You know too much". -Two Teddy Bears on a Magnet.

I want you to know that I have finally opened my eyes. This isn't what I intended, I swore to you that we would never fall apart. It's like the Fall for You by Secondhand Serenade where you're impossible to find! Haha. I'm yours to keep. Hold on to your words, because talk is cheap. Remember me tonight when you're asleep. Tonight will be the night that I will fight for you, I swear it's true. Because a girl like you's impossible to find, impossible to find. Okie, now I'm just being funny hahahahaha. I'm listening to the song right now, it like came out of nowhere on this random playlist I found on Playlist.com.

This morning I woke up to the warm sun and my warm blanket sheets. My first thought was of you. It's been like that all week since I read your letter to me... I can't believe I've been that oblivious, lovee. I don't see how you can deal with me. Sighs. I can't deal with myself sometimes either, but anyways. Back on subject. I decided to clean my room, then eat. While I was eating I was flipping through the channels and came across Veggie Tales. Mahn, I've only seen like one full show of that which was the Veggie Tales Movie with Moses haha. But then it showed me an important message. Which was "A thankful heart is a happy heart. That's why we say thank you. To show we're happy to have these things and know these people in our life".

Mar, all you've done is show your gratitude for meeting me and that you care. I couldn't ask for anything. I never saw it because I was blinded with naiivity(if that be a word bwahaa=)I'm grateful to have met you. THANK YOU SO MUCH BABBBEBESSSSS!!! I remember everything we've went through. From the clock in Tobiason's, to my first time at your house on the trampoline, to the bday party with the streamers, to your first love, to all those breakdowns, to all the epiphanies we've come up with us, to the tears, to the smiles, to the luaghter, to the food I've stolen in your house, to the pink alienated headband, to everytime you rearranced your room, to the OCD thing you have with messiness, to playing for the clarinet ensemble, to seeing your beautiful face. The face I will never forget. Sighs, whoa chill out, Nikks. Haha.

I hope I can say that I know you more than most people ever will. Are you still falling easily in love, my dear? Haha. I miss you. Never will stop thinking about you or loving you, dude. :P
Not a lesbian. Haha.


p.s. I wish livejournal wasn't blocked on my comp. Grr.
p.p.s. You may think you look weird everyday, but I don't have to see you to have you know that I think your one of the most greatest sights the world can experience. I don't think I'm making sense. But I never do. But I know you know what I'm talking about hahahahaha.

Soulmates

Do you believe in soulmates? I do. I believe that in each person's life, there's exactly one person out there who is meant for them. Sometimes we find them, sometimes we don't. It depends on trust, faith, and of course patience. It's raining outside and I'm still sick. GLLLALARFLAEKRF AEF OIKJSNEF OWERJ SEKFJ. I wonder what it was that hit Romeo when he first saw Juliet? There aren't a lot of Romeos out there anymore in our time. I wish there was... But that just makes me sound more of a sap.

Only 2nd day in school and I'm packed with assignments and getting ready for the next day.

Ally's eye is half red.=[
Jaimes' is leaving on Friday.
Filipino Club candidate nominations are tomorrow.
My bday is next Friday!
I'm running for KM's 09-10 Sophomore Secretary. Ahaahahahahahahahahhahaha all I can do is laugh because things didn't turn out the way they were suppose to. No comment. Figure it out.

1. I don't like you. Ugh, you're so annoying and I try to never look in your direction, but it's whatever because you don't try to make eye contact which is a smart move.
2. I definitely don't like you. You're ugly and stupid. You were a friend, and I used to be your support. But not anymore since you held a grudge over the most insignificant thing. Get over it. Grow up, you mangy dog. Disgrace for the race of being Filipino. *spits*
3. You look like a 12-yr-old and try to act like an adult. You're materialistic, dumbfounded, and a good friend of mine. Sometimes I wonder how this could be? Ay sus mariosep. (sp?). I want to tell you to go away sometimes, but I could never do that. Let it rain on your pretty little head.
4. AUGHS! You're blood and I can't believe it. Your grades are horrendous and your attitude is getting on my nerves. I don't see how I live with you. You make Melanie and Derrick fight, argue, and scream every other day. Why can't you open your ears and eyes? God gave you that use, yanno? But I could never hate you because I quarrel with harsh love...
5. Get out of my life. I love you. I yearn to see you any time of the day. But I want you to go away so I can move on with my life. You taught me the lesson of love obliviously and ignore me purposely. You make weird eye contact, and you give awkward greetings. I wish you knew. But you will never, ever, know.

3 Places

I want to go to 3 places before I turn 65 years old.

Belogradchik Rocks of Bulgaria. One of the 7 wonders of the world. The formations, which vary in color from red through yellow to grey, are a product of erosion and every distinct rock is named after an object it is believed to resemble.








Capital of Austria, Vienna. KNown for one the most places with the most happiest people because of less crime, people work less, and that's where Sound of Music was filmed.







Borneo River, of South America. I was thinking of the Amazon, but I remember a story where my Nanay(Grandmother) told me a scary story of poison and death occuring in a walking trail. This place looks beautiful so this is where I choose to go to.