In life we are provided with many decisions and choices. I think those things shape our lives. It's our own place to shape our life. When an opportunity is offered, make sure to accept it and use it to the best of your advantage. It could change your life and be one of those things that make you smile when you wake up. I mean, everyday we are provided with chances and opportunities. They're everywhere! In choosing our friends, what toothpaste to use, what answer to write on a test, whether you believe in yourself or not, and most importantly what's number one or two in your heart, mind, and soul.
To miss a chance is mind-messing. For example, if there's something you need to say or do, and you choose not to do it... You might be spending the rest of your life wondering what would've happened if you did what you needed to do. It's called a regret. At the same time though, a regret is a lesson not learned. I may be confusing, but think about it. Let's name a daily problem; going out with someone. If it was a nasty breakup with many hardships and difficulties, then in the end you regretted it, did you not learn anything? In most cases, there is a gain and a loss. You wouldn't want to spend your whole time thinking of what could be different because what's done is done. You are who you are today with the chances you took and lost.
When losing an opportunity, it could be felt as maybe yourself feeling like a loser. You might make some bad excuses or commit to problems than taking your opportunity. When it shows up unexpectedly out of your life, weigh your options, take your chance, make this occasion last. You never know... Losing out on something could lead to sadness, anger at self, depression, regret, sorrow, and maybe even heartache.
There's not much to say now. Except now I'm thinking of the only two regrets I have tried to let go in my head; ditching the gifted program of 3rd grade, and never telling my one first love how I felt. The first one had no gain. I was in the gifted program for one semester, but I quit and went back to regular because it was too difficult for me and I felt lonely. I was such a kid at that time. When I went back to my old school regular education, I already learned everything that they were just looking into. I spent most of my free time writing sentences in cursive and practicing multiplication/division/subtraction/addition. I felt real smart though in front of all those kids that they looked to me. I could've benefited so much if only I stayed dedicated to that program. But I did learn something; always be dedicated to all that you do and never quit.
My second regret was a time of all those negative feelings I listed earlier. I'm still provided with so many chances even today to tell him. I remember what he told me when we were close friends, "It's all about the perfect time and place, but even though the wait is long, in the end it's always worth it". Although we don't speak to each anymore, he's one of the biggest effects on who I am today and how I see things. I hope that one day I could just say "thank you".
This is the end to my blog. I've been writing a lot while being stuck at home watching Japanese Anime and Drama. Haha. It's a good way to spend my time. Well, I hope that no one ever gives up on their dreams or wishes, and that when something is given right in front of you, that you won't just reject it.
Because you never know.
