I just overlooked all my entries this year compared to last school year, and last year I was more in depth with what I was going through and what was in "my mind". Why is that? DANG, last year I was hecka stressed out. I still am right now, but I now know how to handle it other than the last years of my life. I've started about 4 entries in the last 2 days but wasn't able to finish them or have the courage to post them up. Now, I will express what's in my head.
Last Thursday, my Mother and I got in an argument in whether I should be in IB or do Running Start. I have nothing against any of the two programs, but I really don't know what to pick. IB provides a huge beneficial learning experience for me and is basically Tech Academy but on paper. Right now I have one IB class which is Pre-Calc/Trig, which is apparently a college class says Mrs.Reed. I had a C at the time of last thursday and my mother was going BALLISTIC. Being all "You really think you could handle a 6-period IB diploma crap when you can barely B+ your way through ONE IB class? How do you expect to succeed in life? How do you expect to succeed in anything when you overwhelm yourself with too many priorities and meet too much people? and etc."
I see where she's going at but goodness, making me feel bad about myself isn't going to help me, it's going to make me feel like I"m a complete failure. Geez, encourage me instead. I really want to get the IB diploma. Why?
-It's challenging.
-Highest level of education by far in HS.
-Prove to my parents that I could do this.
-Won't have to drive and have car insurance and blahz.
-Be able to still have a HS experience.
My Mum and Dad planned out everything for me already though.
Maria Nikki Molina will get her Associates Degree in 2 year running start for nurse at Highline CC. Then after graduating will be working as a nurse somewhere while attending school at UW for three years to be a physician's assistant.
Wow. All I can say. Like I had a say in it. How can they tell me for the first 15 years of my life that I have to be the best, that I have to reach for the top, put my 150% in everything, never give up, don't quit if my life depended on it! And then sink me down to lower standards. No offense to everyone. It makes me feel like I need to lower my standards on everything that I"m doing and it pisses me off. Why do they think they run my life when they don't even have an idea of who what I do? That's why I inform them on everything that I'm doing, who I'm talking to, where I'm going. I love knowing that my parents know. I think that a lot of kids come to an age where they wish for their parents' attention more than from anyone else. I am at that point because I'm growing up. I can't even list the many differences in myself than myself from last year. I'm still the same person, like same personality, same face, but the way I see life and the things I see are different still changing.
There are a lot of things that I want do in my life. I promise to continue to strive to be the best, and do my best.
Monday, October 26, 2009
Saturday, October 24, 2009
ACT
Apply.
Change.
Train.
i.e. There were about twelve golf balls in this container. The man asked "Is it full?", the student said "Yes". The man replied "Wrong". He added gravel into the container adding to the golfballs and asked "Do you think this is full?", the student said "Yes". "Wrong again", said the man. Then the man added sand and asked "How about now?" and the student said "No?". "Good, you're learning" said the man. The man lastly poured his coffee into it and put the lid on the container. "Now it is full", he finalized. This is an example of our lives. The golfballs represent the values we have in life like our family, friends, happiness, etc. The gravel represents what's important to us like our job, school, money, etc. The sand represents what's unimportant such as using time efficiently, going out when you could be studying, going on Myspace when you could be looking up your science article, etc. Then the coffee represents that there is always time to buy a coffee for a friend and just sit down. What could you learn from that?
How can we succeed in life? Is it talent? NO! Talent is less important as you go through life. In order to make dreams happen you need to give yourself a vision. A vision allows you to see what it is you want clearly in your mind. When you create a vision, you make goals. Goals are the steps that it takes to make your vision become reality, once your vision is clear in life, then you have achieved your goal. Many people don't set goals. This means that they're scared to fail. This means that they want to play it safe, avoid rejection, steer clear of utter humiliation. But in life, there are plenty of setbacks and going over. In over to do this you need COURAGE; stnading up to get heard. Imagine your vision, your dream, waht you want in life. Imagine the feeling of what it'll be like when you accomplish your goal or dream. Studies show that 97% of those who write down their goals, they achieve it.
i.e. Michael Phelps. He's one of the most amazing athletes of history, he probably IS. They interviewed after he won his most recent gold medal and an interviewer had to ask how'd he set his goals up to be where he was. Phelps said he wrote them down so they stuck in his head. The interviewer asked how many of these goals did he achieve. Phelps said all of them. All of them, people. ALL OF THEM.
Everything we do in our life, is due to our habits. Humans are creatures of habits. If we want to change our habits, we have to COMMIT to changing something everyday. If you want to be something, be important, get to the high top, achieve your goal, you've got to do something to change or commit. We must adjust to these ways if we could. This paragraph makes kinda so no sense, but probably only to me haha. You need a sense of purpose in order to change something.
The single most important ability that a person needs to have in order to do good in life is responsibility. If you aren't responsible, how can you expect to get the job done, be picked to plan the wedding, make the most outstanding dinner, or just finish anything? Nothing's going to changed until you are able to just stand up and say "You can count on me!". Take responsiblity for yourself. People are weak and shouldn't be blaming others around them. No disciplin, no dilligence. These weak people want things fast and easy. We focus on the weak and our weaknesses. When we should be looking at our strenghs.
We all go through many obstacles we need to overcome. If you really want to know, in order to do good, it ALL depends on oru self talk. Most people only say personal puke like "I'm so tired, I'm so bad at that, no way I could do this, today's going to suck, etc". These are things that will SINK them. LIFE ISN'T EASY. Have you ever entered a room and you ask someone how are you? And they say "I'm tired, I wish I coudl go to sleep and not be here. Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.
You get the point.
ACT.
Change.
Train.
i.e. There were about twelve golf balls in this container. The man asked "Is it full?", the student said "Yes". The man replied "Wrong". He added gravel into the container adding to the golfballs and asked "Do you think this is full?", the student said "Yes". "Wrong again", said the man. Then the man added sand and asked "How about now?" and the student said "No?". "Good, you're learning" said the man. The man lastly poured his coffee into it and put the lid on the container. "Now it is full", he finalized. This is an example of our lives. The golfballs represent the values we have in life like our family, friends, happiness, etc. The gravel represents what's important to us like our job, school, money, etc. The sand represents what's unimportant such as using time efficiently, going out when you could be studying, going on Myspace when you could be looking up your science article, etc. Then the coffee represents that there is always time to buy a coffee for a friend and just sit down. What could you learn from that?
How can we succeed in life? Is it talent? NO! Talent is less important as you go through life. In order to make dreams happen you need to give yourself a vision. A vision allows you to see what it is you want clearly in your mind. When you create a vision, you make goals. Goals are the steps that it takes to make your vision become reality, once your vision is clear in life, then you have achieved your goal. Many people don't set goals. This means that they're scared to fail. This means that they want to play it safe, avoid rejection, steer clear of utter humiliation. But in life, there are plenty of setbacks and going over. In over to do this you need COURAGE; stnading up to get heard. Imagine your vision, your dream, waht you want in life. Imagine the feeling of what it'll be like when you accomplish your goal or dream. Studies show that 97% of those who write down their goals, they achieve it.
i.e. Michael Phelps. He's one of the most amazing athletes of history, he probably IS. They interviewed after he won his most recent gold medal and an interviewer had to ask how'd he set his goals up to be where he was. Phelps said he wrote them down so they stuck in his head. The interviewer asked how many of these goals did he achieve. Phelps said all of them. All of them, people. ALL OF THEM.
Everything we do in our life, is due to our habits. Humans are creatures of habits. If we want to change our habits, we have to COMMIT to changing something everyday. If you want to be something, be important, get to the high top, achieve your goal, you've got to do something to change or commit. We must adjust to these ways if we could. This paragraph makes kinda so no sense, but probably only to me haha. You need a sense of purpose in order to change something.
The single most important ability that a person needs to have in order to do good in life is responsibility. If you aren't responsible, how can you expect to get the job done, be picked to plan the wedding, make the most outstanding dinner, or just finish anything? Nothing's going to changed until you are able to just stand up and say "You can count on me!". Take responsiblity for yourself. People are weak and shouldn't be blaming others around them. No disciplin, no dilligence. These weak people want things fast and easy. We focus on the weak and our weaknesses. When we should be looking at our strenghs.
We all go through many obstacles we need to overcome. If you really want to know, in order to do good, it ALL depends on oru self talk. Most people only say personal puke like "I'm so tired, I'm so bad at that, no way I could do this, today's going to suck, etc". These are things that will SINK them. LIFE ISN'T EASY. Have you ever entered a room and you ask someone how are you? And they say "I'm tired, I wish I coudl go to sleep and not be here. Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.
You get the point.
ACT.
Sunday, October 18, 2009
Stand Up by Ludacris.
Guessing what could be going through your head.
Eventually you'll tell me.
Till then, I have only scattered nonsensical pieces of advice.
Unknown and sheltered from the horros of this world.
Please, stop looking at the horrors of yourself.
Let me help you. Let me help you see. No one knows what I'm talking about except you, dear bud. Pray to God, the only thing left to do is pray. How can He help you if you do not ask for help? Or are you too stubborn to ask, child? You have so many people around you who love you and we are listening. But you won't let us help you. How could we help you, if you can't help yourself? Keep your head up high, you're stronger than this, and this may be just a phase. I believe in you, even if you may think I don't...
Wwhap the o witt wa.
Eventually you'll tell me.
Till then, I have only scattered nonsensical pieces of advice.
Unknown and sheltered from the horros of this world.
Please, stop looking at the horrors of yourself.
Let me help you. Let me help you see. No one knows what I'm talking about except you, dear bud. Pray to God, the only thing left to do is pray. How can He help you if you do not ask for help? Or are you too stubborn to ask, child? You have so many people around you who love you and we are listening. But you won't let us help you. How could we help you, if you can't help yourself? Keep your head up high, you're stronger than this, and this may be just a phase. I believe in you, even if you may think I don't...
Wwhap the o witt wa.
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
When I look up.
What do I see in myself? Looking into the mirror, I see a face. A face with pores, features, and glimmer from the eyes that portray a young girl who's experienced a lot of things in life. The weight of the world just pushes on my shoulder. Balancing this blue/green planet.
NOOO! It's pushed me down. On my knees with my head down. I look up, and see light.
The world's evils, depressions, stress, and conflicts have brought me down on my knees. I bring my hands together, look up, and have noticed a most particular thing.
I have brought upon myself the world on my shoulders, but have pushed myself to the perfect position to pray.
NOOO! It's pushed me down. On my knees with my head down. I look up, and see light.
The world's evils, depressions, stress, and conflicts have brought me down on my knees. I bring my hands together, look up, and have noticed a most particular thing.
I have brought upon myself the world on my shoulders, but have pushed myself to the perfect position to pray.
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