I Know I'm Not Stupid.

I try really hard in a lot of things that I do, but I must admit that I already get really tired and worn out.

Tomorrow is my Kanji and Physics Test and I'm not sure if staying up all night or waking up early or studying throughout the day are my best options. I'm just naiive to the fact that I could've prepared better. Next week I will do better. I have to get a B in Physics and since I got a 1/10 on the last quiz I have no choice but to do well, yanno? BUT NO NOTECARD? What is this BS? Ugh, I just want to yell at the teacher. But next week I'll meet with my Math TA and my Physics TA. Since I'm switching groups this'll give me an opportunity to be able to go to the review sessions on Thursday from 8-10pm.

It makes me really happy that Eli and I are waiting to use the "L" word. It's not that anything is holding us back, or that we don't feel something remotely close to it, but we're both just not ready. The April thing just happened a year ago. I was just with Tim for 13 months. It's an understandable situation, but what if we wait so long that it'll be too late? Is that possible?

Gotta sleep,
Nikki.