My Faith.

I believe very highly in myself. I will myself to do things that others would never do. I place myself in positions and situations of the unthinkable. I know I have my faith to carry on beside me. Although there is one other person who I believe in more than myself. That is God.

I do not want to be persecutive or offensive, but I will say a couple of paragraphs maybe.

It is because of God that I have a reason for everything. I don't need the science bubbles or proof. All we need is trust and faith. I believe I have both. Although I'm not going to lie, I do waver and feel persecuted at times. But I always find some way to bring myself up. He is the reason. For He is the High Almighty Father. Before I keep going on, I'd like to give a shoutout to Alison B. Thank You, Ally. You helped me realize that I'm doing this to make a change. I wanted to show God that you didn't need to be ... Well. I don't want to really go on because I'll keep on going and going, then venting, then soon exploding with statements and contradictions. Bwahahaha.

I have had my own devotional prayer by myself since I turned 12 years old every night before I sleep. I've never missed one yet. Thank you.

Of the heart.

Why does it have to be so complicated? Why couldn't there be a book where they tell you who you're suppose to be with so you would've have to mess up your life searching for that one person. I mean, do soulmates really exist? I'm so scared. I'm a hopeless romantic yet I'm not that good in relationships. If I was, wouldn't I find myself happy right now giggling thinking about him? But I'm not.

Right now, I'm confused instead.
I don't know what love is. I don't think I'll ever. I want to give up on it. I wish I could. But I can't. Love is everywhere. All forms of it is found in the air, the sky, in the faces of the poeple around me, even in the words of those who don't even speak to me.

I wonder if he really is out there; Mr. Wonderful. What do I know? I'm just M____ N____ M_______. Nothing to find here but one face, several truths, and change that will affect this world.

KMHS

Plain out: I love my high school.

KM is so amazing. It has changed my life in so many ways. People here are straight up real and each and every single person is different and unique in their own way. I can't even sum up to the words that could describe this school. I'll leave it up to those who go there to know what I'm talking about.

Had a great day! Mahn, spring break!! Woot woot! In the morning I had jazz band and gave Jason his backpack and all. Then tried making up piano solos in Jazz with Logan. Logans is so frizzin musically inclined. His hands... I just want to poke them and examine how does his talent come to him? Bwahaha, I sound kinda stalkerish. Then went to first period, had a Japanese Test that I forgot about. Aha. I think it was probably B+ or something. :] Everyone has been pumped all day because of the Spring Sports Pep Assembly during 6th period, yo. Math, and english flew by. Had the best Biology period ever! We shared our cell models and the majority of them were edible so we basically ate food and chilled out! Aha. I can't believe Richard used a microchip thingie. And Zoey's pizza was bawb! Joanna's was so gooooooddd mahn. All sugar, colorful, and creative. Haha mine was brown cake. Bwaahahahahahah. Brown. :D Sandra's was all pink and cuhute. :D

Then had history. Mahn Mr. C knows his stuff. I actually have to pay attention in his class. Dangit. Haha. It was a working period but I just talked to R.Page the whole time. Then shared cake and laughter during lunch. Then 6th period!! I have Athletic Conditioning(Weight Training) so I was in the gym anyways. I just brought my stuff to the stands and all was good. Mahn that guy... So ugh. I swear, he's cool and all yanno? Just as long as he stays away from me, doesn't talk, don't breathe, or touch me, we're good. Ughs. It's whatever. I only have like several classes with him. Sighs. Then I sat with Faagi and Mirchev in the Sophomore section. It was hecka funny. For the Freshmen vs. Sophomores vs. Juniors vs. Seniors challenge, the FRESHMEN WONNNNN!!! WHOOOOOO!!!!! Good job Jason, Gerry, Aubbie, Ella, soccer guy, and Josie! Retarded Morris ripped the poster. Bwaha. JKJK!:D

After school took photos for Key Club and Filipino Club, then picked up my Sweats and Jacket for Track. I was so excited and happy to finally get them! Mahn I've been waiting forever for them. I feel so proud and dandy to have my last name on the back of me. People know who I am. BWAHAH. Then Ally, Sandra, and I went to Sandra's house and chilled for awhile. Ally and I agreed to clean Sandra's room. DAAAYYUNNNNGG! Cleaning her room was like picking up all the dead bodies and cleaning the blood from World War 1! Dang dude. It was crazy. We moved her bed, desks, and drawers around. Ventured in her closet, and underside of her bed. I love you Sandisan and all but you girl are a packrat or something. You have so many clothes! And yet you still want to shop??? Mahn you don't even use half of it. Be grateful and appreciated for what you have, my beautiful. :D

Then Jayson came so Ally and I headed to my house with Jayson. Sandra had to stay home because of parents. Dangit. Aha. Then we got ready for bible study at Jaimee's house. Jeff and Gerry canceled out on us... >;| aha.
Before going to Jaimee's house the 3 of us agreed on going to Paris' house to visit her. We pranked her that we were all at my house and all then we showed up at her front door. I LOVE PARIS! She's so amazing and awesome. I miss her so much mahn! I miss middle school wtih her and everything bwahahaha. She agreed to go with us to bible study. We saw Sarah!!! I MISS HER SO MUCH TOO! Dangit. Haha. It was a fun time. The 4 of us chickas huung out and discussed high school like neverbefore.:D

Soon it was time to leave and we all did. Now I'm at home pondering in my head. Aha.

Goal of the next few days: Improve Writing Skills.