You know what?

I should be working on homework right now, but I'm not. So I've finally realized that I'm a doer not a sitter or a stander, but a doer. I do what I say I'll do, and keep my word. Why do people want things and not even try to get them? I have a friend who always makes bucket lists and funny goals she wants to do, but never has she ever convinced herself or made the time to do what she said she wanted to accomplish. I've finally convinced her that she should because duh life is short and life is beautiful so live it.



I spend almost everyday doing things for school, church, piano students, friends, and family, yet I still have time to make myself happy. Whether it's an unhealthy snack, or jumping on one food I always mange to be happy. Externally, I'm a really happy and positive person. Even internally, but deep deep down I'm probably a mess. I've realized that just not thinking about the bad stuff actually makes my life so much better and my mind stay super clear. Sometimes it's hard for me to stay optimistic and stay positive when something triggers my ill feelings, but I always somehow overcome it.



Right now I'm thinking to myself that I wish I had an instruction manual to my life because it's come to the point where I want to go in almost every door opened to me. But I can't. I've got to limit my e.c. for next year so I can focus on school and church more. Sighs. SENIOR YEAR IS NEXT YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



Current Planned E.C.:

• Senior Class Prez


• Key Club Member


• Robotics Member


• NHS Vice President or Secretary


• Math Club Member
  
  

Other

• Adult Organist


• Binhi Officer


• Piano Teacher
  
  

I've actually had free time for myself more lately since exams are getting closer so less homework. I'm working up a schedule to study every single day at least for 20 minutes!:]

LoveLifeStatus: FML, why do I always feel unimportant?

Three words describing my break: Better. Than. Yours.

Don't worry says the heart, and be strong says my head. This break has opened my eyes to many things I should've done different. Don't think I regret anything it's just I've done some things in my life that I should've done a different way haha.

There's something that the admissions interviewer said to me "Life goes on. You've got to learn to fail in high school and college before you embrace real life. If you're going to be a doctor, someone will die on your table. If you become a lawyer, you will lose a case. If you become a tax collector, someone will try to sue you. Some kids come here to Hopkins saying they want this, this, and this. My structured plan will be this, and I'm to be that in this. What they don't know is that college isn't the end for you where you can finalize your life, it's just the beginning. You've got to learn to fail in college before you fail in life, or else it'll just be more painful. Everything at first will be the most painful or great. Life just goes on."

Right now I keep thinking it's the end of the world, but it really isn't. It may be the end of the world in that one moment, but worse could happen. Always, worse could happen. I've got to stop bringing myself down and doubting the things and people then it will really be the end fo the world for me. There are so many perspectives of single objects and opinions, goodness. I've just got to stay understanding and control my emotions and bias. Well, back to watching korean drama.

W/Love, M.N.M.

Realization.

Mahn, this week just keeps getting better and better. Deveon says that if I can't talk to anyone, I've got to put it somewhere like blogger or my diary; so I'm just doing both. Today I had presented my Psych IA to Mrs. McClung and did my Group 4 Physics IA Project also. Mahn, I never knew all these things existed within IB, it's pretty overloading but so amazing. After all the long and eye-wrenching assignments, projects, and I guess IB Requirements I actually prefer it to over any other kind of education I've experienced. I mean just looking back on my education, I've really been lucky and able to take advantage of my resources. I've been enrolled in the gifted program, always been top of my class in elementary, honors program in Middle School, won 5th in the state for my NHD Project (MiddleSchool), Tech-Academy where I joined a family and honed new skills, and now in IB. Sometimes I can't believe where I'm at. Learning is so.... amazing. I'm doing IB for two reason, outta state and the contents of the IB curriculum.

My Plan:

1. Graduate with the IB Diploma.
2. Get accepted to JHU or any other university that meet my math and science standards.
3. Major in...
   Anatomy
   Bioinformatics and genomics
   Biomaterials
   Biomechanics
   Biophysical chemistry
   Computer programming for engineers
   Mathematics
   Micromachines and robotics
   Molecular and cell biology
   Organic chemistry
4. Complete my six years and find an apprenticeship where I can start my research and/or work.
5. As an adult organist I will try to take oath as a Buklod Officer to stay in the loop and keep my husband or family active.
6. After finding a stable job, each month my savings account will save an amount of 1-2 grand. This account will be set up for my future goals for my kids' tuition and my charity funds.
7. At 40 years old I will join an organization and start what I've been hoping to do all my life; save the world.

So I'm crazy right? It's just a rough draft anyways, just thinking about all of this makes my blood pump and my face warm. You have no idea how much I want to do good. Even if I have almost no self-confidence in my system, going after my dreams boosts it up. Maybe someday I'll be able to wake up and finally feel like the Maria Nikki Molina I used to be only 3-5 years ago.

Time to watch Bleach with Deveon! WHOO. I'm finally getting ahead mayuhnnnn. Hahahahhaa.

W/Love,
M.N.M.

Procrastinating Just Alittle.

First like hour of this week sucked, but ever since then things have been doing really great. Yesterday when I was performing for CWS I had a huge wave of I don't even know what, and I wept, and I laughed, and I smiled. Dang, performing as an organist is so self-fulfilling. I know singing is also great too even if I don't have that much of a great voice, but organist has been like a dream for me since I was 7 and Kuya Tim taught me my first lesson. I've overcome so many obstacles that are going to finally bring me to my ultimate goal success; ADULT ORGANIST!!! I'm so excited, that it's hard to be humble and have a contrite heart, but ateeh Magic and Ka Gerard keep telling me to just continue praying and being humbleeeeeeee.

Yesterday after church I went to Esther's to do homework, and bake goods for today's Math Club PI Day Celebration. David, Jasmeet, and Joanna went. Unfortunately freaking Randy couldn't go, but he had good reasons. GRR RANDY! Hahaahaha. Anyways, it was too fun and just mahn they crack me up. If studying people isn't a hobby, then I'll call it a satisfaction. Freaking Esther, Joanna, and Marianne are such different people with just as much differences between Dev and I. If you throw Watson in that batch, it's even crazier. Today was the celebration and I was MC for the games and food, mahn I love speaking. We sung to YMCA (I lead the singing, hahaha bad singing dawg), played Heads Up Seven Up, Musical Chairs, Telephone, and Duck-Duck-Goose. Superrrrr tired afterwards. We also had a special gathering where I got to sit next to Als, whoo! Then we were told the Ten Commandments of the Church Administration and it was extremely uplifting.

New Personal Goal:
Bear four fruits(bible students) in total by 2014. I have two already, Jayson is going to try it after Judo Season and then we'll see how life goes from there.

Tomorrow is my small presentation for my Psychology Internal Assessment and I'm just starting now. Even if it's an outline I still am alittle nervous. I'm working on my self-esteem issues. Randy gave me a song called Keep Ya Head Up by Tupac that really actually raps what I just need to do with myself in life. I just need to chill and pay attention to the details and look at the big picture of life. I'm very psyched for my JHU and UPenn trip in April, and my Stanford/SeePaulOnHisGradDay trip in May. Sighs, I can do it.

"We grow great by dreams. All big men are dreamers. They see things in the soft haze of a spring day or in the red fire of a long winter's evening. Some of us let these great dreams die, but others nourish and protect them; nurse them through bad days till they bring them to the sunshine and light which comes always to those who sincerely hope that their dreams will come true."~ Woodrow Wilson

Praying for the best,
M.N.M.

MIA.

I don't blog as much as I used to. It's because I realized that I stick all my problems and goals in here instead of focusing on fixing them and following. A couple more weeks until the end of the Semester and I'll have exactly 6 more full quarters until IB Diploma and Graduation. I'm not terrified, just nervous. I've got to keep praying to God for him to be here for me.

I have some new goals ready to be pursued.

Rough Draft speech for Senior Class Prez:

Hello everyone, my name is M.N.M. I am running for your Senior Class President. I have sat side by side almost next to a little over half of this class and I am raedy to increse that number. Why am I running? Because just like each and every officer has attempted to do is make our class as successful as it could be. You could criticize, or make a snide remark at the rather scattered failures, but honestly, hush. It's all in the past. I don't want to go all "For the future, let's bring change!" but I will tell you my original words from the heart. I am running because I believe I will do the best I can; I have faith and high hopes that not just I but we will succeed.

Around New Year's is when I had decided that this will be my pursuit; to become your Senior Class President leading the graduating class of 2012. I have already pre-planned events and activities that we could do to raise money. We can do it; I know it. Unfortunately I'm quite pushy, so if I win on some lucky chance, and the day comes when Senior Class T-Shirts are on the market to be bought by you Class of 2012, I will approach you myself in my busy life to ask you why you cannot buy a t-shirt. It's not a threat, but it's a promise, and I don't break my promises. Some events and senior things I've already looked at are Senior T-Shirts, what to do for Battle of the Sexes, strategies on how win the Canned Food Drive, proposing a Senior Period of Time where almost each week for several or more weeks straight we do events that will raise some money or A LOT of money. Like a Book Drive, Pet Show, Coin Jar, Senior Luau, and more. These will all help us in financing our Prom. Come on you guys, we've got to make it to Prom. I'm not that obssessed with school dances, but now thinking about it I should've tooken School Spirit more seriously for the last couple of years. I never realized how much work the staff and ASB Peoples put into making our year memorable even if they plan things that aren't to our liking. So let's pick it up, stop slacking, raise our interests, and help guarantee that our Senior Year's not going to stink. This is not just a speech so you could vote for me and elect me, but it's also a message I want to share with all of you. Our Class Reps for since Freshmen Year aren't the ones at fault, they could take the blame but not all of it is pointed them.

The characteristics I will own up to starting with the bad is overexcitement, easily stressed, overloader, and weird. These are all quite important, but don't worry, I have good qualities also. I am a hard worker, I never give up, I may complain but I own up to my assignments. I may overload myself, but I'm cutting back just alittle bit because I want to be your Senior President. I want to be the one to watch our budget increase whil our class and I have fun and make money. I want to see you all stare and awe at our success.

I have an obssession with helping people and making an impact on their lives and that's what I'm here to do, what more to help my obssession than lead a body of students to make their last year in high school more memorable than they could imagine. I guess I want to take weird out of my bad qualities because that word not only describes me but is me. Another word I find that is me is leader, and that's what I want to be for you.

I've gone to own up to my other responsibilities though. Diploma might kill me but it's all worth it in the end. I CAN DO ITTTT!!!!!

I actually feel this way.

IB is starting to finally get difficult and it's scaring me just alittle.

My hardest classes:
IB Japanese
IB Psych
IB Physics

My favorite Classes:
IB Psych
IB Physics
IB Calculus

Grades:
You don't want to know. Gahz. I need to pick it up. I have 1 week and 3 more days until the quarter ends. :O And I'm just so scared that I won't at least bring up my B's up to an A- because when they average out for Semeseter they've got to be A's. GRAWRZ! I only have 3 A's right now so let's do this, Nikki!

I'm really trying to build a relationship with my brother he deserves it and I feel really bad for him. I love my brother so much. Goodness. Hope all goes well!:]

Looking Up.

I'M GOING TO DO IT! I'm sick of doubts, distractions, and distresses. I'm going to keep heading in the direction my head's turning.

My Priorities:

• Church Organist/Choir Member [Need to start practicing organ every day as I train to become an adult choir organist]
• Studies [IB Diploma Candidate so I can't really slack and just deal with all 6 IB Classes and enjoy it]
• Family [Chores, DownTime]
• E.C. Activities [KeyClub, VidProdClub, NHS, FAC, and Drama]
• Piano Teacher [7 Students; Tuesday, Wednesday, Saturday]
• Social Circles [Hangouts almost every Friday and Sunday night]

My Worries:

• Friends; will they think I'm too busy?
• Lala; What a loser. I just want to end it with you.
• Inny; He's original, but a nonnie.:[

To-Do List:

• Step it up in Key Club as Secretary.
• Bond with more schools in Division 32.
• Finish guide book for FAC.
• Become more organized in VidProdClub.

Occupation:

• Electrical Engineering
• Physician Assistant
• News Anchor

Okie.

So I've just noticed that after I read any of my blog entries it doens't sound like me. How can I make the things I type out sound like what's going on in my head? I haven't been very thoughtful in Blogger. Dude, I need to start actually writing what's in my mind hahahaha.

So currently I'm working on Fisher's project. I actually like it because I'm finally researching thigns that are given to me in straightforward directions and feel like I'm learning. Plus my topic is perfect for what I want to look at; the Health Care Crisis!! Hahahaha.

My weekend was pretty okay.
Friday; Yugioh Tournie, Basketball Practice.
Saturday; Home, TalkW/Mum, Pedicure, Church.
Sunday; Church, Church, Bball Practice, FeelingSickatHome, VAJA.

I noticed this morning that I can't hold grudges... I'll get mad and frustrated for like 14 minutes straight and vent in my head or to someone, then completely get over it. Unless someone brings that painful event again and wants to talk about it, then that frustration builds again ahha. I'm like counting down to when school ends. I need to pick up my grades, dude! No joke. Haha. Gotta bring up Fisher's and Coble's then I got all A's and A-'s. Goodness gracious.


On a Personal Note:
GONNA BE the 1-6 this SATURDAY! WOOOOOOOTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!

End of my 4th season in Track

It's finally done. I think we have a couple more practices, but today was my last meet. KM vs. KW and it was a really good meet actually. Haha. I got kind of last in my events but I made a PR on the race that I got last in so that should be a good sign that God's saying "Don't give up! You tried your hardest and that's all that matters." And He's right. Track is literally something I will keep on doing until High School ends. I don't care if I'm good at it, or the fasted or the best, I just love doing what I do. The hurdles makes me feel so great, the running gives me energy, and the training is a great way to use my time.

I'm excited for three things...

• My birthday: WOOT WOOT! Gonna have like three parties haha.
• End of Sophomore Year: DUDE! Gonna chill during summmeerrrr.
• Beginning of Junior Year: HOLY SNAPZ! I'm about to be an IB Diploma Candidate. Dude, this is probably one of the most exciting things I've ever made a decision to. I don't care how bad people down it, all those who haven't done the Diploma are the oens whoa re all "OOH, you're going to die!" and etc. Well you know what? I'm different, and I know for sure my class is different to. I'm not doing Diploma to get the college credit, or to be with my friends. I'm doing the Diploma for three reasons; closer to school so I won't be outcasted, going to be way more prepared for college, and the International Baccalaurrette (Sp?) program is the top of the top advanced learning you can take in High School and I've never let down an opportunity like this ever since I quit the Gifted Program (totally one of my only regrets). I can't wait for all the things I'm going to learn, the study groups I'm going to have, the funny anxious feeling of exams, and the excited feeling I'll get when I get my scores. I can do it.

I can do it.

Day of Remembrance

I hit several realizations...

• Moment of Lucid Smiles; I served at the Annual Kiwanis Senior Breakfast 7am-10am today with the Key Clubbers. It was amazing. We set up all the tables and served the food. We even "performed" our Key Club cheer in front of all the seniors. I snuck out of the house this morning to go to this event because I forgot to tell my parents, and I didn't want to cancel on James E. Being scared out of my wits, my Mum called my at 9:30 screaming, screaming, screaming. Not because I left, but because I didn't wash the dishes. Interesting, right? Her exact words, "Why the hell did you forget to wash the d*** dishes? You care more about your devotiosn and promises to friends and school events verses your own family and house. Etc." Sighs. I shouldn't have shed any tears, but the truth in her words hurt emotionally.
  My thoughts; I'll keep that to myself.
• Moment of Athleticism; Had first basketball practice since a year ago. It felt great, but I confounded that it's just like Track, YOU NEED TO WORK GOOD FOR IT! Likewise, I think we had a rough beneficial start today. :D
  My thoughts; I'm anxious for the upcoming practices and the tournament itself.
• Moment of Boredom; Got home and took a nap for three hours. So woke up around 4:00. Took a shower and felt supremely bored. So I emailed a few teachers asking if I could do any extra research or be prepared for any upcoming assignments. And Fisher responded thank goodness haha. Worked on Reed's trigonometric derivations while watching TV for another three hours. AMAZING! Haha.
  My thoughts; I really want to get straight A's for this Semester. It's so close I could taste it. I just have 3 A-'s. They're all close to an A by like 1.4 off each A-. But the thing is I don't really care. Because I really just don't. My teachers are beginning to understand me that way. I told most of them all about it, except Coble and Roller. I love learning, that's why I've never really had straight A's because I didn't focus on the letter grade or percentage accuracy, but made sure that I whatever I turned in I knew exactly what I was turning in, and how I got to that way. I came with a recent realization last week that learning vs. the grade, I'd rather have the learning. The learning is more useful when I'm in college or the real world. I will of course explain that throughly to colleges when I meet the administrators.

Lately, all I can think about the future. Boeing gave me a secret way to keep myself organized. It's called the WIP/OnDeck/Hold List procedure. Haha. I'll explain that later on. I'm still not sure what I want to be when I grow up. I have the whole marriage, kids, time management thing already figured out. But the occupation is the only thing screwing up my plans because I'm still not sure what I want to be. And I'm scared. SO scared that I won't be able to figure it out all in time. I want to do something where I can make a mark on either history or be remembered somehwere.

Have you ever been with someone where you weren't with them? This can be defined in two ways. Where two people are together but netiher one of them know that each other's presence is present, or only one person knows of the other person's present. The second one is where the two people have a bond with one another but do not announce a title of the present attraction. This both has to do with presence and non-presence.
i.e. You are reading this blog right now, and I could be reading it too. Interesting, right?

Another matter of subject; the meaning of words. Why do people always say things, promise things, tell you things that they don't even keep to word? If they really wanted wanted to mean what they say, why don't they just do it? Instead of waiting around for others to tell them what they're doing right or wrong. Sighs. I've come across this circumstance many times in my life, and several times this week. Why do you promise me something and then either you break it or not fulfill it!?!?!? You make me wants to cry, obviously though... You already have that sense. You mean so much to me, why would I lie and not mean what I say?

I feel normal again. Haha. After my day of relaxation and boredom. Ahaha. Well on the phone with Deveon, blog another day.

I agree!

http://www.uni.illinois.edu/og/blog/opinions/2008/09/getting-grade-vs-learning

By Recathi Maturi Published: Saturday, September 20, 2008 - 12:10am

As a student I've frequently found myself asking, "Which do I care more about, the grade or learning?"

As much as I would love to answer, "The learning, of course," I think that I truthfully care more about my grade more than actually learning the material.

For tests I tend to memorize dates and flowcharts without understanding why we use that formula or what the significance of the date is. Is that a good thing? Is it better for me to get an A and not remember the material in a year or is it better for me to learn the material eventually but get a C and end up remembering it my whole life?

In today's society I personally find that there is more emphasis placed on the grade than the learning. To be successful one has to go to college, and to go to college one has to have good grades. People don't care about whether you understand the material or not, they just care about how you did on the test.

Some people learn material slower or faster than others, but by the end of the unit everyone is expected to take the test. It doesn't strike me as fair that one's knowledge is supposed to reflect their performance on the test. Not everyone is a good test taker. Some people know everything about the subject, but when they take the test they just don't do as well as they could.

So, I ask you, what do you care more about? What you got on the test or what you learned?

One Week!

Today is Thurday; one more week until Sophomore Quarter 1 ends. Holy snapz! I'm already getting nervous and fidgety. I got all A's, but one stupid C in stupid math. Dude, I've been getting my stuff done and studying like crazy. My schedule is booked but I still make is possible to put in some relaxation time and nap time. Yayyyyy. Today was an alright day with school, math test, new history project, and chemistry presentation. Dangitz, got a Coble's test tomorrow. I love TypeWriter and BombShell. Dang, these two. Haha. Never will forget them in my life.

Church was pretty fun, too. During worship service the lesson was talking about beliefs on God and Jesus. I love it when Ka Pastor talks; his mouth goes sideways and his eyebrows barely raise. After worship service we had practice and I was way too nervous. My leg was shaking on the bass pedal and my hands were already sweating. That caused me to messs up, but I shouldn't blame that because that just shows that I could've practiced more and done better. I need more confidence and patience with myself.

School's crazy. Church is breath taking. Home is like a prison cell, but I have good company. My parents are finally realizing what's going on with my brother. I hope they can help him... He won't let me help him. He's just as stubborn as I am. Sighs. Time to do math hw. I heard everyone's starting to blog again. {:O Haha.

Thank you for trying, my friend.

Postings.

I just overlooked all my entries this year compared to last school year, and last year I was more in depth with what I was going through and what was in "my mind". Why is that? DANG, last year I was hecka stressed out. I still am right now, but I now know how to handle it other than the last years of my life. I've started about 4 entries in the last 2 days but wasn't able to finish them or have the courage to post them up. Now, I will express what's in my head.

Last Thursday, my Mother and I got in an argument in whether I should be in IB or do Running Start. I have nothing against any of the two programs, but I really don't know what to pick. IB provides a huge beneficial learning experience for me and is basically Tech Academy but on paper. Right now I have one IB class which is Pre-Calc/Trig, which is apparently a college class says Mrs.Reed. I had a C at the time of last thursday and my mother was going BALLISTIC. Being all "You really think you could handle a 6-period IB diploma crap when you can barely B+ your way through ONE IB class? How do you expect to succeed in life? How do you expect to succeed in anything when you overwhelm yourself with too many priorities and meet too much people? and etc."
I see where she's going at but goodness, making me feel bad about myself isn't going to help me, it's going to make me feel like I"m a complete failure. Geez, encourage me instead. I really want to get the IB diploma. Why?
-It's challenging.
-Highest level of education by far in HS.
-Prove to my parents that I could do this.
-Won't have to drive and have car insurance and blahz.
-Be able to still have a HS experience.

My Mum and Dad planned out everything for me already though.
Maria Nikki Molina will get her Associates Degree in 2 year running start for nurse at Highline CC. Then after graduating will be working as a nurse somewhere while attending school at UW for three years to be a physician's assistant.

Wow. All I can say. Like I had a say in it. How can they tell me for the first 15 years of my life that I have to be the best, that I have to reach for the top, put my 150% in everything, never give up, don't quit if my life depended on it! And then sink me down to lower standards. No offense to everyone. It makes me feel like I need to lower my standards on everything that I"m doing and it pisses me off. Why do they think they run my life when they don't even have an idea of who what I do? That's why I inform them on everything that I'm doing, who I'm talking to, where I'm going. I love knowing that my parents know. I think that a lot of kids come to an age where they wish for their parents' attention more than from anyone else. I am at that point because I'm growing up. I can't even list the many differences in myself than myself from last year. I'm still the same person, like same personality, same face, but the way I see life and the things I see are different still changing.

There are a lot of things that I want do in my life. I promise to continue to strive to be the best, and do my best.

You like her, You don't like her.

It's like picking flower petals off a flower. Can you believe we used to do that as kids? I remember I used to determine whether I actually liked the guy from doing that. Today it's more of a feelings crap and all, jkjk! Haha.

She really pisses me off. You know, I love her and all, but sometimes she can really get on my nerves. She's blood and way more mature than me, but that doesn't give her the right to own my life. Well, she is my Mother. But I mean like, do parents make your decisions or help YOU make good decisions? Or do they run your life, or help you live a good life?

Mum knows best, right? I think. I LOVE HER. I SERIOUSLY DO. But just, goodness, when she stops me from doing things I want to do, it makes me really frustrated. I'm not trying to sound like a brat like I want it my way, this way, that way, or being some little stubborn daughter, just the things that I want to do is for the best of someone else. I don't ask of anything really unless it's totally irrevelant towards me but still puts me in control.
i.e. I asked her if I could go on trips to other universities or colleges with the Filipino Board in the state to check out the other Filipino communities, associations, and clubs. She totally freaked. I think it's 'cause I used Gonzaga University as an example. Right now, she's against me being friends with anyone in Spokane, wthail? Anyways, back on topic. She went BALLISTIC! She started saying "What's the point of that? There's no direct facts that show you need to be there? There's email, phone, text, some other kind of communications, you don't have to fly there. Nikki, I don't want you making anymore mistakes like you made in Freshmen year. The prize is straight A's, Filipino Club is just some extracurricular activity, and blahblahblahblahblahblah."

Honestly, Filipino Club is the first time I've been able to make a difference and do what I want to do for a change. The kids of this club are very important to me. I can't handle people messing up my vision that I want to put to action. I have probably only wanted one thing; to make a difference. I want to be remembered as a girl who made change, and good change for that fact. But honestly, I can't do that because there are too many obstacles in the way. I have way too many other priorities. Mum asked me what my goals are because I'm suppose to follow them. I replied with a simple answer of "getting into a good school", and she asked me to repeat myself. All I want to do is be accepted to a school who wants me because of who I am and what I've done. Not because of the grades, or my background, or ethnicity, or scores, but because of the achievements, success, blood, sweat, and most definitely stress I've been through in order to do what I've done in my life.
It is true that this is a lot to think of at the point of being a sophomore and 15 years old, but you know what? Go ahead and underestimate me because in the end I will show you and you will see. Sighs. I'm getting out of hand. I hate the cycle of the month. My mind's been restless with thought, plans, and blahz.

To You: I miss you, lovee. Stop looking and being shy, be a man and take your word that we would not be awkward towards each other. Gnite, and know that I love you.

Always to You, po: Thank you for raising me, for blessing me, for giving me this life, for showing me the path, and sculpting me into who I am.

Top Ten Ways To Get Into An Ivy League School

1. Be in the Top Ten Percent of Your Class
While graduating valedictorian or salutatorian is certainly a worthy goal, just graduating in the top ten percent of your class is enough. Admissions officers often prefer a passionate student who got the occassional ‘B’ over a valedictorian who spends much of his or her time focused on grades and studying for the SAT and doing little else during their high school days.

2. Take a Challenging Course Load
If possible, look into taking Advanced Placement and/or Honors classes offered by your school and take as many as you can reasonably handle. Many schools also offer “dual programs,” which allow you to take classes from the local colleges for high school credit. The key here, however, is to not go overboard. Only take on what you can handle without burning out. You want to make sure you have time for other activities outside school.

3. Volunteer
Contributing to your community and to the well-being of others is always looked upon favorably. There are a myriad of ways to volunteer according to your own unique talents, so don’t feel constrained by the ‘usual’ volunteer jobs. Reading to/or tutoring kids at a children’s hospital, helping at an animal rescue center, assisting at an elder-care center are only a few ways you can volunteer. Plus, these experiences will also help you see the bigger picture in life and bring a level of maturity to your decisions.

4. Have Meaningful Extracurriculars
Admissions committees don’t like seeing a ‘laundry list’ of activities you’ve participated in. They’d rather see you participate in one or two activities for a longer period of time. Reaching a high level of leadership or achievement in one or two activities (sports also count!) makes you more appealing than doing six or seven activities.

5. Prepare for Standardized Tests
When preparing to take the SAT, it is wise to take practice tests. This is both to familiarize yourself with the format of the test, and also to pinpoint your weaknesses in order to optimize your score on the real thing. Keep in mind, however, that many applicants with perfect SAT scores are rejected from the Ivy League every year as well, simply because they don’t stand out in any other way.

6. Apply Early Decision
By applying to a binding Early Decision program, you show great interest in that school, which is taken into account. Understand, however, that not all of the Ivy League schools have Early Decision programs: Harvard and Princeton did away with their’s last year.

7. Get to Know Your Teachers
Constructively participate in class and always show respect to your instructors. Turn in your work on time, give it your best effort, and let your teachers know you appreciate them. Your teacher needs to see that you are a responsible, good person so he or she will write you a wonderful recommendation.

8. Fill Up Your Summers
Whether you decide to pick up more hours at work, volunteer in another country, or get a great internship, top colleges like to see that you haven’t just spent your summer goofing off and letting the days ’slide on by.’

9. Be a Meaningful Individual
These days, admissions committees are looking for the stand-outs; students who are not just well-rounded but also have something to offer to the school. Know who you are and effectively convey that to the school you’re applying to. Let them know what you bring to the table and how your experience bring something meaningful to the school.

10. Have fun!
Most importantly, have fun. Top colleges don’t want kids who’ve lived their entire lives just to impress a future admissions committee. By following your passions, keeping busy, and working your hardest, you’ll become a stellar college applicant and a great human being.

Reference from:
http://myusearchblog.com/top-ten-recommendations-for-getting-into-the-ivy-league

I'm ready, I'm ready, I'm ready. -Spongebob Squarepants.

Things in store for Year 10-11:

-1st Jazz Band Concert where I can perform all the songs.
-KM Tech Academy Student.
-Key Club Member.
-National Honors Society Member.
-Sophomore Secretary.
-Filipino Club President.
-Auditions for the next KM play.
-Gymnastics Season.
-Track Season.
-Junior Year elections.
-That 4.0 I've been trying for.
-Future things to think of.

Thank you God, for everything. Thank you. If it wasn't for you... Where would I be? Since I was baptized and forgiven, I've prayed every night since and never have I forgotten to pray at night. My family have started "family prayers", I love it.
With my family and friends support, they have encouraged me in everything I do. Even when I thought of giving up or even epic failure bwahaha. THANK YOU!

ARIGATOGOZAIMSHITA.
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THANK YOU.

To Be or Not To Be-2.

Knowledgeable--They explore concepts, ideas and issues that have local and global significance. In so doing, they acquire in-depth knowledge and develop understanding across a broad and balanced range of disciplines.

This is the second characteristic that an IB students should possess. They should have the need to explore everything all around them locally, globally, and not only issues around your area. You develop your own knowledge and understanding an eclectic mind of everything.

Advice: Explore all the ubiquitous components dealing with simply everything.

To Be or Not To Be.

Inquirers--They develop their natural curiosity. They acquire the skills necessary to conduct inquiry and research and show independence in learning. They actively enjoy learning and this love of learning will be sustained throughout their lives.

This is one of the first components that an International Baccalaureate student should have as a characteristic. You must have a curiosity to explore the unknown and want to figure these things out. You shouldn't be motivated to learn and be taught things, you should have a want to explore the mystery. Throughout your life there will be things to figure out and take apart, problems to go through step by step coming to a result, test that will have either a good or a bad outcome. You should inquire all, and let all answers vary.

Advice: Question everything.