You know what?

I should be working on homework right now, but I'm not. So I've finally realized that I'm a doer not a sitter or a stander, but a doer. I do what I say I'll do, and keep my word. Why do people want things and not even try to get them? I have a friend who always makes bucket lists and funny goals she wants to do, but never has she ever convinced herself or made the time to do what she said she wanted to accomplish. I've finally convinced her that she should because duh life is short and life is beautiful so live it.



I spend almost everyday doing things for school, church, piano students, friends, and family, yet I still have time to make myself happy. Whether it's an unhealthy snack, or jumping on one food I always mange to be happy. Externally, I'm a really happy and positive person. Even internally, but deep deep down I'm probably a mess. I've realized that just not thinking about the bad stuff actually makes my life so much better and my mind stay super clear. Sometimes it's hard for me to stay optimistic and stay positive when something triggers my ill feelings, but I always somehow overcome it.



Right now I'm thinking to myself that I wish I had an instruction manual to my life because it's come to the point where I want to go in almost every door opened to me. But I can't. I've got to limit my e.c. for next year so I can focus on school and church more. Sighs. SENIOR YEAR IS NEXT YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



Current Planned E.C.:

• Senior Class Prez


• Key Club Member


• Robotics Member


• NHS Vice President or Secretary


• Math Club Member
  
  

Other

• Adult Organist


• Binhi Officer


• Piano Teacher
  
  

I've actually had free time for myself more lately since exams are getting closer so less homework. I'm working up a schedule to study every single day at least for 20 minutes!:]

LoveLifeStatus: FML, why do I always feel unimportant?

Realization.

Mahn, this week just keeps getting better and better. Deveon says that if I can't talk to anyone, I've got to put it somewhere like blogger or my diary; so I'm just doing both. Today I had presented my Psych IA to Mrs. McClung and did my Group 4 Physics IA Project also. Mahn, I never knew all these things existed within IB, it's pretty overloading but so amazing. After all the long and eye-wrenching assignments, projects, and I guess IB Requirements I actually prefer it to over any other kind of education I've experienced. I mean just looking back on my education, I've really been lucky and able to take advantage of my resources. I've been enrolled in the gifted program, always been top of my class in elementary, honors program in Middle School, won 5th in the state for my NHD Project (MiddleSchool), Tech-Academy where I joined a family and honed new skills, and now in IB. Sometimes I can't believe where I'm at. Learning is so.... amazing. I'm doing IB for two reason, outta state and the contents of the IB curriculum.

My Plan:

1. Graduate with the IB Diploma.
2. Get accepted to JHU or any other university that meet my math and science standards.
3. Major in...
   Anatomy
   Bioinformatics and genomics
   Biomaterials
   Biomechanics
   Biophysical chemistry
   Computer programming for engineers
   Mathematics
   Micromachines and robotics
   Molecular and cell biology
   Organic chemistry
4. Complete my six years and find an apprenticeship where I can start my research and/or work.
5. As an adult organist I will try to take oath as a Buklod Officer to stay in the loop and keep my husband or family active.
6. After finding a stable job, each month my savings account will save an amount of 1-2 grand. This account will be set up for my future goals for my kids' tuition and my charity funds.
7. At 40 years old I will join an organization and start what I've been hoping to do all my life; save the world.

So I'm crazy right? It's just a rough draft anyways, just thinking about all of this makes my blood pump and my face warm. You have no idea how much I want to do good. Even if I have almost no self-confidence in my system, going after my dreams boosts it up. Maybe someday I'll be able to wake up and finally feel like the Maria Nikki Molina I used to be only 3-5 years ago.

Time to watch Bleach with Deveon! WHOO. I'm finally getting ahead mayuhnnnn. Hahahahhaa.

W/Love,
M.N.M.

Today in Psychology.

We learned about stereotypes and how we stereotype people everyday. It's almost human nature. Sometimes I just wonder though, why? How did we bring upon ourselves to stereotype? Has it been existent for as long as man has lived or is it just several hundred years old?

It's hard to finalize if I stereotype because when I first meet people, they're a blank canvas. And as I get to know them, their impressions paint colors into their canvas and soon they give me a painting in which I soon get to know by every shadow, light, or dark color. I absolutely love meeting new people, it's like my brain builds more rooms to store more paintings. The world is filled with a lot of people, dude, like A LOT. It's crazy when I try and think about how many people I do know compared to the population of the entire world. I have like 15 different social circles and yet I barely know 1/100000000000000000000th of United States, or maybe I know a little under that haha.

Reminisce: I remember when I was in first grade and it was one of our get-to-know each other projects and I put my #1 goal is to meet everyone on the world. As I accelerated in intellect (haha big words) I realized that I didn't want to meet the murderers(unless they're willing to change), the rapists(unless they promise not to harm me or anyone I know), or yanno just those people classified as "bad". It's a lot of work knowing people, too. I mean, remembering faces should be like an ability, mahn. It's crazy how every face is different yet people have trouble matching names and faces when family members are easier to remember.

Well, I've got to do math homework that I ran in the rain for (inside joke) and study for a japanese test(that I have no idea is on).

W/Love,
MNM.

MIA.

I don't blog as much as I used to. It's because I realized that I stick all my problems and goals in here instead of focusing on fixing them and following. A couple more weeks until the end of the Semester and I'll have exactly 6 more full quarters until IB Diploma and Graduation. I'm not terrified, just nervous. I've got to keep praying to God for him to be here for me.

I have some new goals ready to be pursued.

Rough Draft speech for Senior Class Prez:

Hello everyone, my name is M.N.M. I am running for your Senior Class President. I have sat side by side almost next to a little over half of this class and I am raedy to increse that number. Why am I running? Because just like each and every officer has attempted to do is make our class as successful as it could be. You could criticize, or make a snide remark at the rather scattered failures, but honestly, hush. It's all in the past. I don't want to go all "For the future, let's bring change!" but I will tell you my original words from the heart. I am running because I believe I will do the best I can; I have faith and high hopes that not just I but we will succeed.

Around New Year's is when I had decided that this will be my pursuit; to become your Senior Class President leading the graduating class of 2012. I have already pre-planned events and activities that we could do to raise money. We can do it; I know it. Unfortunately I'm quite pushy, so if I win on some lucky chance, and the day comes when Senior Class T-Shirts are on the market to be bought by you Class of 2012, I will approach you myself in my busy life to ask you why you cannot buy a t-shirt. It's not a threat, but it's a promise, and I don't break my promises. Some events and senior things I've already looked at are Senior T-Shirts, what to do for Battle of the Sexes, strategies on how win the Canned Food Drive, proposing a Senior Period of Time where almost each week for several or more weeks straight we do events that will raise some money or A LOT of money. Like a Book Drive, Pet Show, Coin Jar, Senior Luau, and more. These will all help us in financing our Prom. Come on you guys, we've got to make it to Prom. I'm not that obssessed with school dances, but now thinking about it I should've tooken School Spirit more seriously for the last couple of years. I never realized how much work the staff and ASB Peoples put into making our year memorable even if they plan things that aren't to our liking. So let's pick it up, stop slacking, raise our interests, and help guarantee that our Senior Year's not going to stink. This is not just a speech so you could vote for me and elect me, but it's also a message I want to share with all of you. Our Class Reps for since Freshmen Year aren't the ones at fault, they could take the blame but not all of it is pointed them.

The characteristics I will own up to starting with the bad is overexcitement, easily stressed, overloader, and weird. These are all quite important, but don't worry, I have good qualities also. I am a hard worker, I never give up, I may complain but I own up to my assignments. I may overload myself, but I'm cutting back just alittle bit because I want to be your Senior President. I want to be the one to watch our budget increase whil our class and I have fun and make money. I want to see you all stare and awe at our success.

I have an obssession with helping people and making an impact on their lives and that's what I'm here to do, what more to help my obssession than lead a body of students to make their last year in high school more memorable than they could imagine. I guess I want to take weird out of my bad qualities because that word not only describes me but is me. Another word I find that is me is leader, and that's what I want to be for you.

I've gone to own up to my other responsibilities though. Diploma might kill me but it's all worth it in the end. I CAN DO ITTTT!!!!!

To Want.

Love is like fire. It can only grow with the combination of wood and those supporting molecules in the air. But most of all it needs that spark. That spark that will enlight the whole thing. What would we do without the spark? Once the spark lights between the oxygen molecules and the wood combust and BAM, you got a fire. And it grows and it grows. But without that tiny small spark, it had never happened. What happens if the fire goes out? You just keep fueling the fire and keeping that spark up.

Love,
Chicken.

Homework for the Weekend.

My family are the most wonderful people. My Mum had an emotional breakdown so I've been staying with her the whole time since she's gotten home comforting her. Now the family's watching a movie in the living room and tears come to my eyes on how lucky I am to have them with me. Sighs.

• Japanese Translation Pg 1 and 2
• Kanji-Hiragana Overview
• Read Module 6 of Psych Book
• Douglass Questions&Packet
• Takehome Physics Exam
• Problems for Physics Chapter 3-5
• RRJs for English (3)
• Calculus HW

That's how we go!

No one understands me in my passion for learning. I love school. Not because I get to see my friends, or do extra curricular activities, but the learning just makes my day a whole lot brighter. I love being taught new things every day and being able to put to use the knowlege I've learned. It may make me nerdy, but I'm proud. I don't even know why I'm doing IB, I could care less about the freaking college credit or whatever. Ever since I was a kid, my parents have always raised me to care about my grades and do work. I learned from children's movies that you need to do things because you want to. I couldn't quit school, so I turned to learning as something reliable I could do. There are five things in life I can rely on that will always help me in whatever situation I find myself in or etc: my family, food, praying, God, and intelligence.

Dream Guy: Smarter than me.

Going to get to work. Let's go, Stanford!

Heroes of the Day: Julzen B, Jordan A, and Allan B.
Remembering: Mara A, Lauren C, Natrice L.
Miss: Emmalyn L, Alison B, Jaimee M, Anre N, Marque L.

Looking Up.

I'M GOING TO DO IT! I'm sick of doubts, distractions, and distresses. I'm going to keep heading in the direction my head's turning.

My Priorities:

• Church Organist/Choir Member [Need to start practicing organ every day as I train to become an adult choir organist]
• Studies [IB Diploma Candidate so I can't really slack and just deal with all 6 IB Classes and enjoy it]
• Family [Chores, DownTime]
• E.C. Activities [KeyClub, VidProdClub, NHS, FAC, and Drama]
• Piano Teacher [7 Students; Tuesday, Wednesday, Saturday]
• Social Circles [Hangouts almost every Friday and Sunday night]

My Worries:

• Friends; will they think I'm too busy?
• Lala; What a loser. I just want to end it with you.
• Inny; He's original, but a nonnie.:[

To-Do List:

• Step it up in Key Club as Secretary.
• Bond with more schools in Division 32.
• Finish guide book for FAC.
• Become more organized in VidProdClub.

Occupation:

• Electrical Engineering
• Physician Assistant
• News Anchor

Let today ring into the hearts of many men.

I'm on the last day of summer and I'm striving to get it all done. Sighs. I can do it.

Hey you! Yeah, you! Come see me.. you make me nervous.:[

Hello IB Diploma.

The Random Things In My Head.

• Please take care of me!
  This is a message from your heart, your most devoted body part, taking blood and making art.
  This is a message from your heart, pounding away from the dark, you can thank me for the start. This is a message from your heart.
• Sugar cane in the easy morning, what are things like one and lonely?
  Hey moo, please forget to fall down. Hey moo, don't you go down.
  You are at the top of my lungs drawn to the ones who never are.
• Oh, the glory when you ran outside with your shirt tucked in and your shoes untied and you told me not to follow you.
• And Happy New Year with love overflowing, with joy in our hearts for the blessed New Year.
  And happy new year to all that is living, to all that is gentle, kind, and forgiving.
• It's finals, and I gotta study. KEEP STUDYING!
• HazelnutBritishPeanut= Classy, educational, and relaxed. I can do it.
• Oh mothers let's go down, come on, don't you want to go down, come on mothers, let's go down, down in the river to pray.
• You'll be happy when it's all over, that journey of searching and waiting.

Heroes: Anre, Camillo, Marque, and Sandra.

Review Summary.

Thursday: FAC through a super amazing birthday celebration. Pamela gave me a tear-jerking speech. Everyone brought food, and they even kicked out people who aren't FAC or allowed to be there haha. Pamela's going to be a strong leader when she grows up, she's like a mini-me. Hahaha. Announced the new officers; Ronald&Kerlyn for Co-Ps, Charlene for Secretary, Pamela for Treasurer, and Angelo for VidProducer. That bday party was the first time anyone ever planned anything for me. Ahaha. Then went to Deveon's Grandma's house for the first time. Played games on iTouch, ate dinner, and taught Keith.

Friday: Spent whole day with Family in Seattle, went to the Symphony Orchestra (Dude! I want to learn how to play cello!), came home and went straight to cleaning the house and partied the rest of the night with my freaking amazing Tech Friends and KW Girls. Hahaha. Dude, we played Limbo, opened presents, said one thing people liked and didn't like about me, and ate food. Oh yeah and the Tale of Desperaux! Haha. Then parents canceled the me going to the beach to count down with Kuya but it's all good. But the worse part came right before midnight... Which is something else...

Saturday: Woke up feeling kinda sad because of that thing but it's all good. Because "___________" happened, screaming and arguing happened the whole morning and afternoon. Deveon came over to cheer me up and we hung out playing Monopoly the rest of the day until I left for church. WHOO, CHURCH!

Sunday: Church, church, Lauren, Saturation Drive, Binhi Mtg, BEAST VID!, Bday Party, Basketball Practice, Bday Party, Exhaustion.

Monday: Horrible day. No comment.

Tuesday: Great Day.

Wednesday: Great Day. Aced Kanji Test!

Thursday: I love FAC.

TODAY! Can't wait for the GEM!:D

End of my 4th season in Track

It's finally done. I think we have a couple more practices, but today was my last meet. KM vs. KW and it was a really good meet actually. Haha. I got kind of last in my events but I made a PR on the race that I got last in so that should be a good sign that God's saying "Don't give up! You tried your hardest and that's all that matters." And He's right. Track is literally something I will keep on doing until High School ends. I don't care if I'm good at it, or the fasted or the best, I just love doing what I do. The hurdles makes me feel so great, the running gives me energy, and the training is a great way to use my time.

I'm excited for three things...

• My birthday: WOOT WOOT! Gonna have like three parties haha.
• End of Sophomore Year: DUDE! Gonna chill during summmeerrrr.
• Beginning of Junior Year: HOLY SNAPZ! I'm about to be an IB Diploma Candidate. Dude, this is probably one of the most exciting things I've ever made a decision to. I don't care how bad people down it, all those who haven't done the Diploma are the oens whoa re all "OOH, you're going to die!" and etc. Well you know what? I'm different, and I know for sure my class is different to. I'm not doing Diploma to get the college credit, or to be with my friends. I'm doing the Diploma for three reasons; closer to school so I won't be outcasted, going to be way more prepared for college, and the International Baccalaurrette (Sp?) program is the top of the top advanced learning you can take in High School and I've never let down an opportunity like this ever since I quit the Gifted Program (totally one of my only regrets). I can't wait for all the things I'm going to learn, the study groups I'm going to have, the funny anxious feeling of exams, and the excited feeling I'll get when I get my scores. I can do it.

I can do it.

A Speech For You

I never knew what it was like to have an adult who wasn't related to me believe in me. To know that there are others out there who want to look out for me not because I'm their burden or responsibility but because they want to make me better at something they know in their heart I could do. From the middle age to the high age I've traveled and grown stronger, learning how to use my abilities to the fullest. Because they screamed my name, because you screamed my name, I was able to scream my name.
The world turns afoot under my feet when we run, hurdle, vault, jump, or throw. That distinct moment of rightness or wrong is what we feel, but what all of us feel at that second is faith; faith in ourselves. You as our mentors, teachers, wise adults have work hard every day to gather us together and pass on what you have learned in your life. I make stand to tell you simply that even if all of us tell you or know ourselves, we thank you.

Today was great. Had the Liberty HS Invite, and the GIRLS BEASTED! Got second in the whole meet unbelievably, and I GOT MY FIRST MEDAL! For ym 4 by 400 relay. Dang, I sprinted my first race that was a whole lap(400) and did pretty good. Above is just a jurisdiction to what I want to tell my coaches one day. They've done a lot for me and my team. All coaches around should be appreciated! Ahahaha, how hard do you think it is to manage teens on a daily basis depending on your patience level? Haha.
Anyways, had Key Club Mtg with James and Anthony, we talked about everything and preplanned this Wed, the Haiti Yard Sale, and the Installation Banquet. It's starting to be hard to focus on my serious life and my personal life, but I'll manage.

END OF THE QUARTER; THIS THURSDAY!

GNITE!

Day of Remembrance

I hit several realizations...

• Moment of Lucid Smiles; I served at the Annual Kiwanis Senior Breakfast 7am-10am today with the Key Clubbers. It was amazing. We set up all the tables and served the food. We even "performed" our Key Club cheer in front of all the seniors. I snuck out of the house this morning to go to this event because I forgot to tell my parents, and I didn't want to cancel on James E. Being scared out of my wits, my Mum called my at 9:30 screaming, screaming, screaming. Not because I left, but because I didn't wash the dishes. Interesting, right? Her exact words, "Why the hell did you forget to wash the d*** dishes? You care more about your devotiosn and promises to friends and school events verses your own family and house. Etc." Sighs. I shouldn't have shed any tears, but the truth in her words hurt emotionally.
  My thoughts; I'll keep that to myself.
• Moment of Athleticism; Had first basketball practice since a year ago. It felt great, but I confounded that it's just like Track, YOU NEED TO WORK GOOD FOR IT! Likewise, I think we had a rough beneficial start today. :D
  My thoughts; I'm anxious for the upcoming practices and the tournament itself.
• Moment of Boredom; Got home and took a nap for three hours. So woke up around 4:00. Took a shower and felt supremely bored. So I emailed a few teachers asking if I could do any extra research or be prepared for any upcoming assignments. And Fisher responded thank goodness haha. Worked on Reed's trigonometric derivations while watching TV for another three hours. AMAZING! Haha.
  My thoughts; I really want to get straight A's for this Semester. It's so close I could taste it. I just have 3 A-'s. They're all close to an A by like 1.4 off each A-. But the thing is I don't really care. Because I really just don't. My teachers are beginning to understand me that way. I told most of them all about it, except Coble and Roller. I love learning, that's why I've never really had straight A's because I didn't focus on the letter grade or percentage accuracy, but made sure that I whatever I turned in I knew exactly what I was turning in, and how I got to that way. I came with a recent realization last week that learning vs. the grade, I'd rather have the learning. The learning is more useful when I'm in college or the real world. I will of course explain that throughly to colleges when I meet the administrators.

Lately, all I can think about the future. Boeing gave me a secret way to keep myself organized. It's called the WIP/OnDeck/Hold List procedure. Haha. I'll explain that later on. I'm still not sure what I want to be when I grow up. I have the whole marriage, kids, time management thing already figured out. But the occupation is the only thing screwing up my plans because I'm still not sure what I want to be. And I'm scared. SO scared that I won't be able to figure it out all in time. I want to do something where I can make a mark on either history or be remembered somehwere.

Have you ever been with someone where you weren't with them? This can be defined in two ways. Where two people are together but netiher one of them know that each other's presence is present, or only one person knows of the other person's present. The second one is where the two people have a bond with one another but do not announce a title of the present attraction. This both has to do with presence and non-presence.
i.e. You are reading this blog right now, and I could be reading it too. Interesting, right?

Another matter of subject; the meaning of words. Why do people always say things, promise things, tell you things that they don't even keep to word? If they really wanted wanted to mean what they say, why don't they just do it? Instead of waiting around for others to tell them what they're doing right or wrong. Sighs. I've come across this circumstance many times in my life, and several times this week. Why do you promise me something and then either you break it or not fulfill it!?!?!? You make me wants to cry, obviously though... You already have that sense. You mean so much to me, why would I lie and not mean what I say?

I feel normal again. Haha. After my day of relaxation and boredom. Ahaha. Well on the phone with Deveon, blog another day.

When the World Stops Pt. 2

How can you call yourself what you call yourself?
When you don't even know yourself, but do know yourself.
The thing is, you know what people think of you, but you always wonder to yourself what you think of you.
How can you smile when you're only smiling on your skin?
When you know it's wrong and tell others it's wrong.
The thing is, you know it's wrong and believe others shouldn't do that because it's like you're covering up, but you do it because well you know that you're covering yourself.

I'm tired of it. Of people being retarded, of broken families, of those who judge and throw anxiety to others. I hate it when someone has so much potential and doesn't use the best of their ability to. I'm not saying overwhelm yourself, but try a couple of things. I have a perfect example in my head, I just wish he knew. I don't understand why just some people don't understand or don't even try to. Are you them? Uh, no. Gosh motherchick, I don't know what I'm talking about anymore. I was so good for the whole of this month, just this week I've felt off, SUPPAAA off. I want to just hang out or pig out, but I got stuff to do and weight to keep down.

I love my family, sitting here in the middle of Ms. Reed's room I'm tearing up and thinking of them. My Mum struggles, my Dad grows cold, my Brother rebels, and I sit.

Dalvyn Morris - "Whatever's wrong, I hope it gets better."

I love...

Ice cream + Space Jam= Happiness As Of Now. Haha.

My Family, and a special dedication to Alison BEE!

Cherishing the Day.

So I've got tell you something. I have high hopes for myself. I'm starting to read newspaper articles online every day, going over SAT and SAT subject questions every day with Deveon and by myself. I've come to really realize and be hit that I am nothing without God. I'm on my own in this world surrounded by people. But I'm not me without His help. He's the one who grants me the knowledge, wisdom, and talent that I need. He's brought me all the blessings and needs that I've prayed for. My Mum's right... He's kind and forgiving. Deveon's right... he's merciful and loves His children no matter what.

I'm starting to feel sick though. Gahz, working on Binhi poster and going to take a shower soon. I've played three games of Monopoly straight and won! I keep winning so I gave myself a new goal; earn a net worth of 60 and over. That's my new goal. Haha. I've tooken 20 pictures of my Monopoly wins. I'm a loser. WOOT!

Current Heros: Parokya ni Edgar. (KSD blocked playlist.=[)

Unearthing My Upside

Today was great.

-Woke up at a great time.
-Practiced organ.
-Watched the birds.
-Made breakfast.
-Performed Children's Worship Service.
-Giggled with Jaimes.
-Played with Gwennie.
-Joked with Von and Pat.

Now onto the best parts of today...
-NEW PHONE, DUDE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Motorola Blur, sonn. Haha.
-Open House of the new chapel. I can't believe that finally, just finally, we have our own place. We bonded, some cried, some laughed, some felt uncomfortable, some haven't even realized it yet. But we know for sure that we are happy nad grateful. The Locale of Kent is actually older than I am. Thank goodness, that's a long time. Haha. There's a guarantee of transfers to our locale once we start performing there. I have some new set goals for the place, too! But I'll keep that to myself for now. The place is beautiful, without the dirty shrubs, funny korean characters [sorry sandisan! haha], huge cracked cross, and just remnants from the people before us. Although today we dishonored it... Long story, not sure if I'm allowed to type it, but hopefully we'll remember not to do that again. Aha.
-Bonding with my family. Today, my bro, Mum, and I had a serious talk in the car and at Safeway. Sighs. So I'm really not a jealous person because Mum taught me how to appreciate all things especially the simpler things in life, but there's only one person I've truly been envious about. And I told my Mum and brother today. That conversation changed my outlook on how I treasure family. You might not get what I'm saying, but it's all good. Haha. I get what I'm saying. I love my family, even if we fight, even if we exchange yells or weird words, we always get over it after like two minutes. The thing I love about family fights or any fight really is the making up. WOOT! But I wouldn't mind no fights haha.

Well, back to doing homework and watching the Oscars. Dude, school's really starting to look good again. WOOT! Pre-Calc's fun, Gameboard's finished, Thesis Chart finished, and Japanese, well I'm working on it.

TIME TO GO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

With Love,
M.N.M.

The Highlights of my Beginning

It is all starting to piece together!

• Track!!!!!!!!!!!!
• Overachieving in Pre-CALC

• Self-studying in Japanese
• Fun Gameboard in CWI
• Holy Supper in 4 days

What a Day.

I woke up with a resentment in my fragile heart. Right now, I'm super vulnerable. Goodness gracious. I put clothes on, ate breakfast, brushed teeth, popped into Sandisan's car, and went to school. Today was kinda gray, jazz was depressing. Anre and Sandra cheered me up in Chem, Sandra was a helping hand in Japanese, and the way to Math, Deveon came. :] Math was hard though... Because I'm frustrated with Ms. Reed. No comment on it but I have to promise to myself I'm going to study hard for Monday's Trig Test.



Fisher's was a drag with the debate. My eye kept bothering and it was hard taking out the white gunk, but like literally right now my whole left eye is red. GAHZ! Hahahaha. It was sad to look at him... But I had to put a brave face and chill. We got to play Monopoly at the end! That definitely cheered me up. Lunch was calm, I ate with him and we walked around. Trek and Momo threw pennies at us, bwahahaha. Drake's class was TIGHT! I did a fantastic job as the Oracle and had a lively debate with Massagli (Oedipus). I'm super excited for the next couple of days in Drake's class. I'm going for the Best Actress award for our class! Presentation, I think, is one of my strongest abilities. And one of my most faveeeeeees. Hahaha. Skipped down to Transier's and watched an Art Institue lady talk about video production and show us articles. I went to the back fo the library and showed Mr. Transier my CTE Commercial Pitch and blew him away. WOOT! I fell asleep next to him for like 15 minutes. He said something that I will keep to heart, "Maria, you work too hard." As simple as that, he was right. When the last bell rang, I went to Transier's and presented my CTE Pitch to VidProd Club and got filmed. Then Momo and Sandisan and I headed to the bus and left for the mysterious journey I've been waiting for over several months now... Momo had to go home, so that left Sandisan and I. The time I held in my hands with Sandra today was my favorite part of today. It showed to me that Sandra really is one of my truest and bestest friends. We're both not perfect, or 100% there for each other, but we try, and try and try our hardest. I can't wait to live my life day by day able to hold her hand. THANK YOU SANDRA!!!



Progress: I've cried more than I wanted to.. But I'm going to be strong like you said I was. I'm sorry.. For everything. Tomorrow was suppose to be the big Four. But everything will be fine.. Or it won't.

A Day of a Head Held High

I have a plan. A plan to make things better. But time needs to do its job right, and we must all have patience. My plan will not take its course now, of course. But we'll do how time deals with life.

ANYWAYS ON A LIGHTER SUBJECT.

Mum came home with papers and files saying that I will be a lawyer. Haha. She printed out information, admissions, and qualities that a Harvard Law Student or Yale Law Student needs to know. I started laughing because I bet you she'll change my mind to want to become a lawyer. I love my Mum. She's so caring, fair, and super funny. Hahahahahaha. Maybe not as funny as my dad, though.

On a deeply-thought-out moment: I can't stop glancing at the flowers in the glass vase across from me. They're wilting and petals are starting to fall. Among the yellow flowers, the orange/pink in the middle stands tall. That's like me standing tall against the opposing evil forces. Haha. Thank you for your sweet kindness.