It's Never Easy.

Hey haha. So I'm at a sleepover where my friends slept on me and I'm the last to go to sleep. I'm just too thankful for them and what God has done for me this week. Crazy crap has been happening to my family and I, I thought I was going suicidal or some random teenager emotions. Honestly, even if they annoy me or lose faith sometimes, I'll never give up on the Fab6 or any friendships I have. What's odd is I know a lot of people and do have a lot of best friends. Its not a bad thing but not necessarily a good thing either. I get close to people. It happens.

Heart: currently liking Beaver, but not looking for a relationship at all. Strictly no commitment and whatsoever. I can't go through it again dude, no joke haha.

Job: trying.

IB HW: starting, ahahahahahahHahahahahahahahaha.

Family: working at it.

Me: loving my life, not really liking myself but I'll cope and manage.:D

Time for bed,
Cow.

It's Surprising.

How I feel so good right now where I am. There used to be days where I'd cry and cry because of a boy, or because I didn't believe in myself. But since I'm such a chameleon, I learn new things everyday and adapt to my surroundings.

Right now I'm with EstherYang, and SandraLee. MarianneRojas left a half hour ago, and I already miss her. We went to my house after EE meeting, ordered Chinese food, Sandra and I ran to FortuneCookieRestaurant to pick it up, then walked back to home with Sandra, then ate yummy food, cleaned, watched Silent Library, baked cake and brownes, Marianne left, and now we're sitting down watching Silent Library still haha. It's days like these that remind me that I'm not so crazy for taking IB because I have some pretty close people in IB who always have my back no matter what. I also feel like the girls needed this breathing as much as I did.

RIGHT NOW I'm currently not really liking anyone except I'm interested in this guy who is someone I used to be with, but unfortunately I don't think he's interested and plus I've never really tried long distance before.

Lately I've been thinking that I should be friends with D, but I don't think he'd want to. He's the kind to hold grudges and put on greaze mode for as long as he wants. Maybe I should have a darker side to keep up with that, but I really don't care. It really hurts that he won't tell me why he left, but I've just got to accept it. I'm not made for relationships in this time of my life. As much as I love having someone there to call Sweetie, talk all night, and chill whenever we want, that's what I got family and friends for, for now. Hahha.

I feel like running. I feel like laughng. I feel like just gong around the world! I love what I'm doing in my life right now, it's so crazy. What's been kind of weird is all of the people who are down around me. Not only are my IB buds getting down, but my other friends are really not believing in themselves and want to reach the end of their line. I want to help, but I'm also busy with trying to stay levelled in my life. Sighs, but even if I'm busy I'd never give up. For some reason, I like keeping my friends and people I know close to me. Maybe it's because I like being social, but at the same time I really like being an individual. I'm an individual in the crowd.

Time to go study history with Yang and Lee!

Nikki.

Lucky.

The song they sung when they realized we're here for each other.

I love my girls haha.

Today I realized how lucky I am.

It's not that I don't have it all, but I have enough.

Family.
Friends.
God.
IB Program.
I'm not ugly.
Calves.
Freedom.
Disciplined.
Kind-hearted.
Honest to an extent.
Blessed.
Surrounded by love and open arms.

I'm a really lucky person. I'm going to make my dreams come true. I got this. I've found joy in my life. I've brought joy to others. I've listened to the hearts of many people. I've given hope to those who had none. I've done my best to make memories. I've strived to ensure good health even after all those who have mistreated me and forgotten who I was. I've kept head up even when my knees would give out. I still watch television even if I have an HI deadline on Monday. I still have faith in love even if my heart's been trampled twice. Even if I'm not the smartest kid, I know that I can still make a contribution to the world. I'm going to live my life and do my best, and when I die I won't regret anything.

W/Love,
Nikki.

To give up or not to give up.

Today I was reminded of what I've been fighting for since October 20th, 2009th at 7:33 a.m. We were so close, close to just giving up. But Laurie's comment to keep on fighting like rejuiced my head. Sighs. I hate her. We sat in sushi right after school and it was like he overhead my convo with Laurie that he wanted to give up and all. I won't go into detail, but we decided to still take a chance. It seems like no matter how close it feels to end, it's always just another beginning or chapter in our super funny relationship. Once I told him was Laurie said, he got up, put his arm around me and told me he loved me.
Freaking loser. Made my heart melt. He asked me, "Did u miss our hugs?" I said "No" He asked like three more times and I kept laughing saying no. He asked me, "Did u miss me?" I said "No, only for one day which was yesterday when I was on the plane because of the stupid lovey dovey movies." He laughed. We got kicked out of Sushi place and so we walked to Quizno's to just talk more and all.
I told him I didn't want to jump into anything so quickly because I'm still traumatized from the week away and I just need to take babysteps. He asked to hold my hand, I laughed and said "No, you're crazy." Hahahahhaa. Seeing him reminded me what I've been fighting to have this past year and a half; HIM. I realize I never give up on anything. I don't give up easily unfortunately. I never broke up wtih guys unless I had a legitamate reason like cheating, lying, not working out because we're both just not feeling it, etc. Deveon and I just can't really find any big reasons besides God that could break us up. I really wish that something was wrong about him to me, but I just can't really. The only thing I really find unattractive would be his nose, the only thing I really find unappealing about his personality is when he cusses. Everything I don't mind or just love about him.

I keep telling myself I don't want a relationship because I'm busy, but really I don't think I could live being single. Freaking eff, I've been with guys for so long that not being in one just makes me fall right into the next guy. So annoying. But today when Deveon said out of his mouth "I don't think I can handle this anymore. I don't think we can work out any longer." I really just fell in a pit of lions and was ready to stop altogether of being with guys. I mapped a plan while he was talking on ways to stay away from boys that could potentially like me, and ways to not like guys (cuz I'm pretty good at that), and excuses to avoid telling a guy I don't want to like him or be with him because I'm just done hurting ppl, and getting hurt. When I told Harold I'm finished, I really thought I was done with Devere, but I'm not. It's not because I love him, I'm staying because everyday has been a new experience and we've been side by side trying to overocme these experiences to be with each other whether love was illustrated or not. We've only said the "L" word once on the phone on accident, and once in person outside the bus stop after our afterschool date, and today when he said it even if I didn't say it back.
He may not be my Prince Charming, or my Knight in Shining Armor. But he is my Deveon, and I'm going to keep it that way right now. There may be someone better for me, but what I want right now is D and no one else. If I wanted someone else I wouldn't be with Deveon, seriously. Well, time to work.
W/Love,
M.N.M.

Three words describing my break: Better. Than. Yours.

Don't worry says the heart, and be strong says my head. This break has opened my eyes to many things I should've done different. Don't think I regret anything it's just I've done some things in my life that I should've done a different way haha.

There's something that the admissions interviewer said to me "Life goes on. You've got to learn to fail in high school and college before you embrace real life. If you're going to be a doctor, someone will die on your table. If you become a lawyer, you will lose a case. If you become a tax collector, someone will try to sue you. Some kids come here to Hopkins saying they want this, this, and this. My structured plan will be this, and I'm to be that in this. What they don't know is that college isn't the end for you where you can finalize your life, it's just the beginning. You've got to learn to fail in college before you fail in life, or else it'll just be more painful. Everything at first will be the most painful or great. Life just goes on."

Right now I keep thinking it's the end of the world, but it really isn't. It may be the end of the world in that one moment, but worse could happen. Always, worse could happen. I've got to stop bringing myself down and doubting the things and people then it will really be the end fo the world for me. There are so many perspectives of single objects and opinions, goodness. I've just got to stay understanding and control my emotions and bias. Well, back to watching korean drama.

W/Love, M.N.M.

Realization.

Mahn, this week just keeps getting better and better. Deveon says that if I can't talk to anyone, I've got to put it somewhere like blogger or my diary; so I'm just doing both. Today I had presented my Psych IA to Mrs. McClung and did my Group 4 Physics IA Project also. Mahn, I never knew all these things existed within IB, it's pretty overloading but so amazing. After all the long and eye-wrenching assignments, projects, and I guess IB Requirements I actually prefer it to over any other kind of education I've experienced. I mean just looking back on my education, I've really been lucky and able to take advantage of my resources. I've been enrolled in the gifted program, always been top of my class in elementary, honors program in Middle School, won 5th in the state for my NHD Project (MiddleSchool), Tech-Academy where I joined a family and honed new skills, and now in IB. Sometimes I can't believe where I'm at. Learning is so.... amazing. I'm doing IB for two reason, outta state and the contents of the IB curriculum.

My Plan:

1. Graduate with the IB Diploma.
2. Get accepted to JHU or any other university that meet my math and science standards.
3. Major in...
   Anatomy
   Bioinformatics and genomics
   Biomaterials
   Biomechanics
   Biophysical chemistry
   Computer programming for engineers
   Mathematics
   Micromachines and robotics
   Molecular and cell biology
   Organic chemistry
4. Complete my six years and find an apprenticeship where I can start my research and/or work.
5. As an adult organist I will try to take oath as a Buklod Officer to stay in the loop and keep my husband or family active.
6. After finding a stable job, each month my savings account will save an amount of 1-2 grand. This account will be set up for my future goals for my kids' tuition and my charity funds.
7. At 40 years old I will join an organization and start what I've been hoping to do all my life; save the world.

So I'm crazy right? It's just a rough draft anyways, just thinking about all of this makes my blood pump and my face warm. You have no idea how much I want to do good. Even if I have almost no self-confidence in my system, going after my dreams boosts it up. Maybe someday I'll be able to wake up and finally feel like the Maria Nikki Molina I used to be only 3-5 years ago.

Time to watch Bleach with Deveon! WHOO. I'm finally getting ahead mayuhnnnn. Hahahahhaa.

W/Love,
M.N.M.

Procrastinating Just Alittle.

First like hour of this week sucked, but ever since then things have been doing really great. Yesterday when I was performing for CWS I had a huge wave of I don't even know what, and I wept, and I laughed, and I smiled. Dang, performing as an organist is so self-fulfilling. I know singing is also great too even if I don't have that much of a great voice, but organist has been like a dream for me since I was 7 and Kuya Tim taught me my first lesson. I've overcome so many obstacles that are going to finally bring me to my ultimate goal success; ADULT ORGANIST!!! I'm so excited, that it's hard to be humble and have a contrite heart, but ateeh Magic and Ka Gerard keep telling me to just continue praying and being humbleeeeeeee.

Yesterday after church I went to Esther's to do homework, and bake goods for today's Math Club PI Day Celebration. David, Jasmeet, and Joanna went. Unfortunately freaking Randy couldn't go, but he had good reasons. GRR RANDY! Hahaahaha. Anyways, it was too fun and just mahn they crack me up. If studying people isn't a hobby, then I'll call it a satisfaction. Freaking Esther, Joanna, and Marianne are such different people with just as much differences between Dev and I. If you throw Watson in that batch, it's even crazier. Today was the celebration and I was MC for the games and food, mahn I love speaking. We sung to YMCA (I lead the singing, hahaha bad singing dawg), played Heads Up Seven Up, Musical Chairs, Telephone, and Duck-Duck-Goose. Superrrrr tired afterwards. We also had a special gathering where I got to sit next to Als, whoo! Then we were told the Ten Commandments of the Church Administration and it was extremely uplifting.

New Personal Goal:
Bear four fruits(bible students) in total by 2014. I have two already, Jayson is going to try it after Judo Season and then we'll see how life goes from there.

Tomorrow is my small presentation for my Psychology Internal Assessment and I'm just starting now. Even if it's an outline I still am alittle nervous. I'm working on my self-esteem issues. Randy gave me a song called Keep Ya Head Up by Tupac that really actually raps what I just need to do with myself in life. I just need to chill and pay attention to the details and look at the big picture of life. I'm very psyched for my JHU and UPenn trip in April, and my Stanford/SeePaulOnHisGradDay trip in May. Sighs, I can do it.

"We grow great by dreams. All big men are dreamers. They see things in the soft haze of a spring day or in the red fire of a long winter's evening. Some of us let these great dreams die, but others nourish and protect them; nurse them through bad days till they bring them to the sunshine and light which comes always to those who sincerely hope that their dreams will come true."~ Woodrow Wilson

Praying for the best,
M.N.M.

I like oranges.

So I've been really stressed lately because I can't find a summer program to go to! I'm so scared and I'm not sure where I'm going to this summer. I need to have real hands-on experience with something that could spike my interests, but I just can't find the perfect one for me. GAHZ. The more and more I think about my future, the more uneasy I get but I just have to stay strong that I'll follow my destiny.

Five Facts That I Figured Out Today About Myself:

1. I like oranges.


2. Randy's becoming a very good guy friend.


3. I'm really not a girly girl.


4. I have no music preference, it all depends on my mood.


5. I want to see the world.

Time to continue my learning in Physics,
M.N.M.

He's just too wonderful for words.

Today in Psychology.

We learned about stereotypes and how we stereotype people everyday. It's almost human nature. Sometimes I just wonder though, why? How did we bring upon ourselves to stereotype? Has it been existent for as long as man has lived or is it just several hundred years old?

It's hard to finalize if I stereotype because when I first meet people, they're a blank canvas. And as I get to know them, their impressions paint colors into their canvas and soon they give me a painting in which I soon get to know by every shadow, light, or dark color. I absolutely love meeting new people, it's like my brain builds more rooms to store more paintings. The world is filled with a lot of people, dude, like A LOT. It's crazy when I try and think about how many people I do know compared to the population of the entire world. I have like 15 different social circles and yet I barely know 1/100000000000000000000th of United States, or maybe I know a little under that haha.

Reminisce: I remember when I was in first grade and it was one of our get-to-know each other projects and I put my #1 goal is to meet everyone on the world. As I accelerated in intellect (haha big words) I realized that I didn't want to meet the murderers(unless they're willing to change), the rapists(unless they promise not to harm me or anyone I know), or yanno just those people classified as "bad". It's a lot of work knowing people, too. I mean, remembering faces should be like an ability, mahn. It's crazy how every face is different yet people have trouble matching names and faces when family members are easier to remember.

Well, I've got to do math homework that I ran in the rain for (inside joke) and study for a japanese test(that I have no idea is on).

W/Love,
MNM.

It Changes Every So Often.

The more I learn from the people around me and the environment I live in, the more I understand why I am the way I am. Sometimes I think I'm such a complicated human being that maybe I'm just not human but a lifeform with humanistic characteristics.

I smile.
I laugh.
I cry.
I care.
I love.

No matter how much I hate feeling negatively about anything unjust to me, I can only do so much to change the bad to good. Whatever purpose God placed me on this Earth, I want to fulfill it. I can't keep running away from whatever destiny he's put forth for me. I passed my audition to be Adult Choir Organist and I couldn't feel more blessed. Deveon and Patrek have enrolled to be bible students at church, which is an even bigger blessing. Also let's not forget God's life and strength he invested in me while I survived this last week.

It almost feels like school is getting harder. But I NEED TO REMEMBER that worse things could happen. Every day I become just alittle older than I was the last day. Cracks you up doesn't it? School is starting to run my life and whether I like it or not I have to deal with it. As long as I keep praying and hoping for the best, things will go the way my destiny should. Even if there's so many people out there who criticize me on why I do the things I do, my opinion should be above all. So far I'm trying to keep my friends as close as I can, but I miss them so much yanno? I just wish that they could be a bit more understanding but I can't blame them.

Many miracles have been happening lately. My family laughing like no other, Deveon changing for the best and doing wonderful things, I get to bring my own lunch every day, my IB group make me happy, Fab6 never leaves my heart, and God keeps answering my prayers. I've got to have faith in my destiny. Maybe I should make a huge plan/schedule of my every day to get my priorities straight. WHOO HOO!

MIA.

I don't blog as much as I used to. It's because I realized that I stick all my problems and goals in here instead of focusing on fixing them and following. A couple more weeks until the end of the Semester and I'll have exactly 6 more full quarters until IB Diploma and Graduation. I'm not terrified, just nervous. I've got to keep praying to God for him to be here for me.

I have some new goals ready to be pursued.

Rough Draft speech for Senior Class Prez:

Hello everyone, my name is M.N.M. I am running for your Senior Class President. I have sat side by side almost next to a little over half of this class and I am raedy to increse that number. Why am I running? Because just like each and every officer has attempted to do is make our class as successful as it could be. You could criticize, or make a snide remark at the rather scattered failures, but honestly, hush. It's all in the past. I don't want to go all "For the future, let's bring change!" but I will tell you my original words from the heart. I am running because I believe I will do the best I can; I have faith and high hopes that not just I but we will succeed.

Around New Year's is when I had decided that this will be my pursuit; to become your Senior Class President leading the graduating class of 2012. I have already pre-planned events and activities that we could do to raise money. We can do it; I know it. Unfortunately I'm quite pushy, so if I win on some lucky chance, and the day comes when Senior Class T-Shirts are on the market to be bought by you Class of 2012, I will approach you myself in my busy life to ask you why you cannot buy a t-shirt. It's not a threat, but it's a promise, and I don't break my promises. Some events and senior things I've already looked at are Senior T-Shirts, what to do for Battle of the Sexes, strategies on how win the Canned Food Drive, proposing a Senior Period of Time where almost each week for several or more weeks straight we do events that will raise some money or A LOT of money. Like a Book Drive, Pet Show, Coin Jar, Senior Luau, and more. These will all help us in financing our Prom. Come on you guys, we've got to make it to Prom. I'm not that obssessed with school dances, but now thinking about it I should've tooken School Spirit more seriously for the last couple of years. I never realized how much work the staff and ASB Peoples put into making our year memorable even if they plan things that aren't to our liking. So let's pick it up, stop slacking, raise our interests, and help guarantee that our Senior Year's not going to stink. This is not just a speech so you could vote for me and elect me, but it's also a message I want to share with all of you. Our Class Reps for since Freshmen Year aren't the ones at fault, they could take the blame but not all of it is pointed them.

The characteristics I will own up to starting with the bad is overexcitement, easily stressed, overloader, and weird. These are all quite important, but don't worry, I have good qualities also. I am a hard worker, I never give up, I may complain but I own up to my assignments. I may overload myself, but I'm cutting back just alittle bit because I want to be your Senior President. I want to be the one to watch our budget increase whil our class and I have fun and make money. I want to see you all stare and awe at our success.

I have an obssession with helping people and making an impact on their lives and that's what I'm here to do, what more to help my obssession than lead a body of students to make their last year in high school more memorable than they could imagine. I guess I want to take weird out of my bad qualities because that word not only describes me but is me. Another word I find that is me is leader, and that's what I want to be for you.

I've gone to own up to my other responsibilities though. Diploma might kill me but it's all worth it in the end. I CAN DO ITTTT!!!!!

Looking Up.

I'M GOING TO DO IT! I'm sick of doubts, distractions, and distresses. I'm going to keep heading in the direction my head's turning.

My Priorities:

• Church Organist/Choir Member [Need to start practicing organ every day as I train to become an adult choir organist]
• Studies [IB Diploma Candidate so I can't really slack and just deal with all 6 IB Classes and enjoy it]
• Family [Chores, DownTime]
• E.C. Activities [KeyClub, VidProdClub, NHS, FAC, and Drama]
• Piano Teacher [7 Students; Tuesday, Wednesday, Saturday]
• Social Circles [Hangouts almost every Friday and Sunday night]

My Worries:

• Friends; will they think I'm too busy?
• Lala; What a loser. I just want to end it with you.
• Inny; He's original, but a nonnie.:[

To-Do List:

• Step it up in Key Club as Secretary.
• Bond with more schools in Division 32.
• Finish guide book for FAC.
• Become more organized in VidProdClub.

Occupation:

• Electrical Engineering
• Physician Assistant
• News Anchor

I LOVE THEM.

My Best Friends; Alison, Natrice, Lauren, and I just prayed. It's too good. We slept at like 6am last night. Laurie had to mute herself from laughing! Today Nat and Ally hung out with me today dude. I can't wait for Ally's birthday on Monday!:D

Back2Normal.

Dude, everything feels different but the same at the same time haha.

School is over and I'm really glad to have had Sophomore year finally end. It was one of the most ridonkulous school years EVER! Ahaha. I'm still awaiting my job opening from Mathnasium and so far am chilling at home haha.

Don't have real big plans for the summer except for tons of hangouts, study sessions, Cali in August, and CHURCH!:P Ahaha.

Back to watching Korean Drama.

I <3 the world.

W/Love,
M.N.M.

On My Break.

-Blogger.

-Dinner.


-Piano.


-Thinking.


-Trying to RELAX!


HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

FINALS, FINALS, FINALS. Just want to skip to Friday! NO JOKE!

A Good Day.

-Natrice.
-Alison.
-Chris.
-Ryan.
-Justin.

N: Oh my gosh, dude you're so funny. I can't believe it took you forever to get out of the freaking car. Haha Sorry I was being like pushy and annoying, but I really wanted you to just get out and do it. But I know you don't regret doing it so it's okay. I think it's hecka funny how you were more excited about today than your own birthday! No joke haha. I loved spending time with you and making your last few days of 15 years old memorable. I'm sorry he's talking to another girl but at least you guys have made up and you know what's up with him. It was a chance you were willing to take. Aha.

A: DUDE!!! I'm so glad we spent day with each other. I had hecka fun. We need more of these days. I'm so glad we were able to hang out, laugh, eat food, share some old memories. Sorry if J and I had those inside jokes and I never told you about the blackberry thing! Truthfully, it was because it's kind of embarassing, right?... Haha I don't think I've ever told anyone about it. I think we sing better than J. Ahahahahaahhaa.

C: Nice job being the middle man today. I thought you were pretty weird at first, but you turned out to be really good afterwards haahha.

R: Guy, get 'em. I think you should leave that other girl and go for N. :D

J: Honestly, you are one of like the five guys I'm compeltely comfortable with and I'm very thankful to you for that. After the long ride you stayed over by eating din din with the fam, watching Paranormal Activity, helped me fix my hymns, and talked for like two and a half hours. I'm glad that even if we're exes, we're still really good friends. Thanks, J!

God: Thank you for this beautiful, blissful, and bawbsome day.

Dude!

I thought today would be the worst day ever. But the second I got on stage for my induction for the NHS ceremony, I gained all confidence back.

From the beginning of Rhythm for Relief all until the end I know inside myself that I'll be fine.

Btw, I lost my phone backstage in the KM PAC. So if you try and contact me there, it won't work. Sighs. Back to eating dinner, and doing homework. WOOT!

With Love,
M.N.M.

Review Summary.

Thursday: FAC through a super amazing birthday celebration. Pamela gave me a tear-jerking speech. Everyone brought food, and they even kicked out people who aren't FAC or allowed to be there haha. Pamela's going to be a strong leader when she grows up, she's like a mini-me. Hahaha. Announced the new officers; Ronald&Kerlyn for Co-Ps, Charlene for Secretary, Pamela for Treasurer, and Angelo for VidProducer. That bday party was the first time anyone ever planned anything for me. Ahaha. Then went to Deveon's Grandma's house for the first time. Played games on iTouch, ate dinner, and taught Keith.

Friday: Spent whole day with Family in Seattle, went to the Symphony Orchestra (Dude! I want to learn how to play cello!), came home and went straight to cleaning the house and partied the rest of the night with my freaking amazing Tech Friends and KW Girls. Hahaha. Dude, we played Limbo, opened presents, said one thing people liked and didn't like about me, and ate food. Oh yeah and the Tale of Desperaux! Haha. Then parents canceled the me going to the beach to count down with Kuya but it's all good. But the worse part came right before midnight... Which is something else...

Saturday: Woke up feeling kinda sad because of that thing but it's all good. Because "___________" happened, screaming and arguing happened the whole morning and afternoon. Deveon came over to cheer me up and we hung out playing Monopoly the rest of the day until I left for church. WHOO, CHURCH!

Sunday: Church, church, Lauren, Saturation Drive, Binhi Mtg, BEAST VID!, Bday Party, Basketball Practice, Bday Party, Exhaustion.

Monday: Horrible day. No comment.

Tuesday: Great Day.

Wednesday: Great Day. Aced Kanji Test!

Thursday: I love FAC.

TODAY! Can't wait for the GEM!:D

End of my 4th season in Track

It's finally done. I think we have a couple more practices, but today was my last meet. KM vs. KW and it was a really good meet actually. Haha. I got kind of last in my events but I made a PR on the race that I got last in so that should be a good sign that God's saying "Don't give up! You tried your hardest and that's all that matters." And He's right. Track is literally something I will keep on doing until High School ends. I don't care if I'm good at it, or the fasted or the best, I just love doing what I do. The hurdles makes me feel so great, the running gives me energy, and the training is a great way to use my time.

I'm excited for three things...

• My birthday: WOOT WOOT! Gonna have like three parties haha.
• End of Sophomore Year: DUDE! Gonna chill during summmeerrrr.
• Beginning of Junior Year: HOLY SNAPZ! I'm about to be an IB Diploma Candidate. Dude, this is probably one of the most exciting things I've ever made a decision to. I don't care how bad people down it, all those who haven't done the Diploma are the oens whoa re all "OOH, you're going to die!" and etc. Well you know what? I'm different, and I know for sure my class is different to. I'm not doing Diploma to get the college credit, or to be with my friends. I'm doing the Diploma for three reasons; closer to school so I won't be outcasted, going to be way more prepared for college, and the International Baccalaurrette (Sp?) program is the top of the top advanced learning you can take in High School and I've never let down an opportunity like this ever since I quit the Gifted Program (totally one of my only regrets). I can't wait for all the things I'm going to learn, the study groups I'm going to have, the funny anxious feeling of exams, and the excited feeling I'll get when I get my scores. I can do it.

I can do it.