Basically.

It's been one week and a day into IB Diploma Junior Year, yet I still haven't bought my new diary. Gahz, I should've bought it long time ago for preparation. Anyways, I've loved it so far and the only downside is that I've been sick since last Friday night and so it's been almost a week. GAHZ. But it's okieeeee.

I'm going to nickname this one guy; Lala. Lala apparently likes me. But what the heck? He's so confusing. On the phone or on FB or text he's pretty expressive about himself. Then in person or having real contact, he just gets weird, shy, or just I guess awkward. And that makes me feel uncomfortable because I don't know. I also forgot what it's like to like someone who's a member and kind of long-distance. Though I didn't think it'd be this hard! If he talked to me at least every day for not even that long, and maybe left a text here and there I'd be fine. But I never know what's going on with him, what he's doing, or get to tell him what's up with me! Not trying to sound clingy but it feels so... Off. Why do I keep doubting myself that he likes me, I'm like nervous about it. I want to ask and confirm but I've already done it like six times. But I don't believe him... I guess I want proof. What is it though that I want to see? I don't want to hear anything, I want to see something. Maybe he come and see me, but he wouldn't do that. Or I don't know. Then I talk to all my guy friends so comfortably and this random guy who'll we'll nickname Inny. Ahaha, I like nicknames. I just feel like venting I guess. I'm hanging out with Inny tomorrow and I've only met him once which was for like ten minutes, and yet he's texted me almost every day since he got my number. And we're only friends.

LALA: I like you. And I miss you, but I don't know what to do with you because you make me feel nervous or something. I just want to hang out with you and talk to you at a consistent pace, but I don't know. I'll talk to you about this when we can.

Anyways gotta go read Ch.4 the Great Gatsby!

Let today ring into the hearts of many men.

I'm on the last day of summer and I'm striving to get it all done. Sighs. I can do it.

Hey you! Yeah, you! Come see me.. you make me nervous.:[

Hello IB Diploma.

THINGS TO DO!

Got to get cracking on the IB HW!

I LOVE THEM.

My Best Friends; Alison, Natrice, Lauren, and I just prayed. It's too good. We slept at like 6am last night. Laurie had to mute herself from laughing! Today Nat and Ally hung out with me today dude. I can't wait for Ally's birthday on Monday!:D

How?

How did I lose track of time and realize that the things lost are the most precious things to me? I've grown apart from a handful of people who've made my life such a better place to live in haha. And I've given up on some things that tore my heart apart.

Then there's my current reality. With people I'm trying to fight for to stay beside me. AlisonB has been a best friend I've never had, we think the same things, we believe in the same reasons to be alive, and want to literally grow old together. LaurenC has never hesitated to hold my hand, or let me cry on her shoulder, and I've never hesitated to do the same. JaimeeLM is the best cousin I've ever had and I wish nothing could've severed our connection, but no matter what we'll always be in each other's lives because of the blood flowing in our veins. NatriceL never gives up trying to make me smile and always can be counted on as being my bestfriend and because she is who she is I believe she always brings the best out of me. EmmalynL, you remind me of why the Fab6 still breathes and lives, and because of your softness and tender heart you always are there to hold my heart in your hands. MaraA, you've been the key to my heart since 7th grade Tobiason and never have you failed to be yourself and keep from drowning. MaddieS you keep my life bright with sunlight and sunflowers, because of you I can never stop laughing. MeganI, to pay back what I've done for you, you always am here for me as my ear and supervisor and have given me abilities I never knew I was capable of.

Last Dedication even if it might be kind of rocky and weird. You, who has given me the greatest gift of all; hope that love is worthy enough to have me and even if you couldn't give it to me, I know that at least I could find it.

Day 2

IB Biology

IB English

Day 1

July 1st-2nd, 2010th.

This is going to become my vent of my IB mind. So I've realized that it's time to step it up. Junior and senior year will be at the highest demand for concentration and focus. Today is the first day of the last half of 2010 and it's time to kick it up a notch. I will be writing in here as if it's a log of everything I want to rewrite that I've learned in IB.

Found this IB Physics SL Website: [in my labels for this post]
-Decided to work on the whole first math worksheet. Pretty interesting. Simple algebra 3-4 review.
-N2R: 2pir=circle circumference, pirsquared=circle area.
-Started the graphic organizer on how physics apply to real life.
-This physics website has just prepared an introduction for mechanical physics. So far I've looked into distance vs. displacement, speed vs. velocity, and the averageness of speed and velocity.
-Wow, I was just doing the wrong thing ahha. I thought you have to complete the graphic organizer as you go through the notes but you're actually suppose to fill it out yourself haha. I'm correcting myself as we speak.
-Working on the graphic organizer.
-Mechanical physics are the works through the fields of aerodynamics, space technology, environmental science, etc.

I feel good already dude.