How?

How did I lose track of time and realize that the things lost are the most precious things to me? I've grown apart from a handful of people who've made my life such a better place to live in haha. And I've given up on some things that tore my heart apart.

Then there's my current reality. With people I'm trying to fight for to stay beside me. AlisonB has been a best friend I've never had, we think the same things, we believe in the same reasons to be alive, and want to literally grow old together. LaurenC has never hesitated to hold my hand, or let me cry on her shoulder, and I've never hesitated to do the same. JaimeeLM is the best cousin I've ever had and I wish nothing could've severed our connection, but no matter what we'll always be in each other's lives because of the blood flowing in our veins. NatriceL never gives up trying to make me smile and always can be counted on as being my bestfriend and because she is who she is I believe she always brings the best out of me. EmmalynL, you remind me of why the Fab6 still breathes and lives, and because of your softness and tender heart you always are there to hold my heart in your hands. MaraA, you've been the key to my heart since 7th grade Tobiason and never have you failed to be yourself and keep from drowning. MaddieS you keep my life bright with sunlight and sunflowers, because of you I can never stop laughing. MeganI, to pay back what I've done for you, you always am here for me as my ear and supervisor and have given me abilities I never knew I was capable of.

Last Dedication even if it might be kind of rocky and weird. You, who has given me the greatest gift of all; hope that love is worthy enough to have me and even if you couldn't give it to me, I know that at least I could find it.