Basically.

It's been one week and a day into IB Diploma Junior Year, yet I still haven't bought my new diary. Gahz, I should've bought it long time ago for preparation. Anyways, I've loved it so far and the only downside is that I've been sick since last Friday night and so it's been almost a week. GAHZ. But it's okieeeee.

I'm going to nickname this one guy; Lala. Lala apparently likes me. But what the heck? He's so confusing. On the phone or on FB or text he's pretty expressive about himself. Then in person or having real contact, he just gets weird, shy, or just I guess awkward. And that makes me feel uncomfortable because I don't know. I also forgot what it's like to like someone who's a member and kind of long-distance. Though I didn't think it'd be this hard! If he talked to me at least every day for not even that long, and maybe left a text here and there I'd be fine. But I never know what's going on with him, what he's doing, or get to tell him what's up with me! Not trying to sound clingy but it feels so... Off. Why do I keep doubting myself that he likes me, I'm like nervous about it. I want to ask and confirm but I've already done it like six times. But I don't believe him... I guess I want proof. What is it though that I want to see? I don't want to hear anything, I want to see something. Maybe he come and see me, but he wouldn't do that. Or I don't know. Then I talk to all my guy friends so comfortably and this random guy who'll we'll nickname Inny. Ahaha, I like nicknames. I just feel like venting I guess. I'm hanging out with Inny tomorrow and I've only met him once which was for like ten minutes, and yet he's texted me almost every day since he got my number. And we're only friends.

LALA: I like you. And I miss you, but I don't know what to do with you because you make me feel nervous or something. I just want to hang out with you and talk to you at a consistent pace, but I don't know. I'll talk to you about this when we can.

Anyways gotta go read Ch.4 the Great Gatsby!