Gift List.

1. 500 Days of Summer DVD.
2. A Green Hoodie.
3. A Life-Sized TeddyBear.
4. A Metronome.
5. A Purple Polka-Dot Scarf.
6. Yellow PJ Bottoms.
7. Blue Scarf.
8. A Silver Bracelet.
9. A Golden Necklace.
10. Piano Book with all of Chopin's Classic Favorites.

WOOT WOOT!

When The World Stops.

Selflessness; to think about other's needs above your own.

I want to be more selfish, I think. Like talk more about myself, grow an ego in plain words. I'm not sure how to get there though... Sighs. But see, it depends! With girls, I'd rather talk about them because well they're girls, and girls like talking about themselves. I feel like if I talked about myself though, they'll just judge, space out on it, or wish they could talk about themself. If it's converasting wtih boys, they don't even really care because thye do care. I can't really explain it haha. I asked Deveon about and he said "Boys were just raised to not really give a shiz." Hahaha.

I'm going to try and be more open. But are you willing to pay attention, my friend?
BWAHAHAHAHA!

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Heroes of the day: Emmalyn L., Natrice L., and my orginial Alison B.

Yesterday was the last school day of 2009.
At around 7:30 I surprised Natrice and Emmalyn with Alison and I. We took pics, caught up with one another, talked about a specific brother, love lives, family, Arizona, all kinds of junk hahahaha. We waited the longest time for Nat's mum to wake up and be ready. We ended up eating at Applebee's and having an okay time. Unfortunately, I told Alison about a very disturbing subject which killed her insides and I feel totally horrible about because I should've told her later because she became super upset.=[ She soon got over though during dinner, then we went to Wallgreens to get ice cream which we didn't even eat. We laid in bed at home and talked, then fell asleep on Emmalyn around 1:30a.m.9(so early!!!).
We woke up around 9a.m. and made breakfst; sausages, bigger sausages, bacon, eggs, and pancakes. Just when we finished food, Emmalyn had to leave. After Nat, Als, and I ate, we went down to the Marina and picked at crabs, shrimp, and rocks. WOOT WOOT! Kuya Teddy was our hero for driving us haha. Then we talked for awhile, watched videos, cooked more sausage, Als fell asleep for a bit, Nat's Mum came home, and then we headed on down to Bellevue Square to go ice skating and hang. THAT WAS SUPER FUN! So many inside jokes and awkward moments, too lazy to write hahaha. The way home was quite sad. Mariah Carey started playing and some sad songs reminded me and probably the other two girls about weird stuff. Listening to those songs, and watching buildings pass by me in the night on the way home created a door in my head where I finally made a decision...

Anyways.

Things I Want To Do With Him:
-Go ice skating, push him down.
-Go to Bellevue Square Mall, make him buy me ONLY Godiva chocolate.
-Go to a rocky beach, put a crab down in his hood.

Gniteeeeeeee. Let the stars shine brgiht tonight.

Futuristic Jobs.

1. Family Practictioner.
2. Pediatrician.
3. Physician's Assistant.
4. Biomedical Engineer.
5. Head Business Corporate Owner.
6. Musician/Teacher. (It's a tie!)

My father and I are looking up jobs and all kinds of stuff that I could do when I'm older. I took the career cruising test and here are my results.

1. Principal.
2. Martial Arts Instructor.
3. Podiatrist.
4. Pediatrician.*
5. Special Education Teacher.
6. Physical Therapy Assistant.
7. Prosthetist/Orthotist.
8. Child and Youth Worker.*
9. Family Practicioner.*
10. Mental Health Nurse.*

It seems so far... The life ahead of me. Gahz. I get scared thinking about it. Whatever God has in store for me, I will follow.

Today's Summary:
I finally went to a full day of school not including jazz band, and I felt super cranky the first half of the day because I only got like 5-6 hours of sleep last night. [Got home at 1am back from watching AVATAR, then stayed up until 2am to study math] Being back at school after like 4 days of missed school felt super weird. It was hard enough adjusting to not going to school, then finally when I'm used to it, got to go back to school. Then the break starts on Wednesday, gahhhhhhz. Haha. But it was nice seeing everyone's faces, getting my assisnments, and greeting the teachers. I was super stressing for Coble's test but fortunately she gave me mercy and said I could take it tomorrow. Reed wasn't here so another fortunate thing that I get to study more for the Ch.4 Test tomorrow! WOOT WOOT!
Fisher- PLAYED MONOPOLY!
Drake- Watched a movie!
Transier- Had a guest speaker. He talked to us about college and future jobs. He lent us all a PDA with a pen and we took some personality tests to see who we are. Apparently, I'm an artist; an innovator, thinker, someone who creates ideas, and has a wild imagination to send all sorts of messages to others and show feeling. Sort of sounds like me and doesn't. Or does it sound like me? Haha.
After school went to Joanna's with Sandisan and did MATH! I almost gave up and started tearing up because I didn't get it. But the girls told me to just take a breather, skip it, get over it, then move on. And it worked. Haha. Went home around 3:30, cleaned the kitchen, ate chocolate, practiced piano&organ, and waited for student to come at 5pm. No one was home until like 5 haha. Now I am relaxing on my couch waiting for dinner to be ready.

Life is finally back to normal. :D

Tomorrow.

I will wake up!
I will do some pushups to get the blood flowing!
I will open my eyes and force a smile!
I will eat breakfast that my Mum made!
I will practice my organ!
I will pray!
I will leave at 7:40 a.m.!
I will arrive and greet the chapel!
I will change into my uniform!
I will pray!
I will prosper!
I will reassure myself with the talent, skill, and faith that God has given me!

AUGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHS!
Not nervous, just alittle scared and ready to overcome what I've been fighting.
Everything will be different after this weekend, or the same.
I will pray.

Freaking Riztarded.

Unbelievable. We pulled in the parking lot, and they pressed the button which clicked the camera which flashed.

If only, if only.
If only I wasn't sick today and went to school.
If only I took better care of my body and myself in general before worrying about everyone else's sakes.
If only I woke up earlier and called Emerson earlier.
If only the 10 o clock block wasn't my phone and I would've gotten Jayson's text msg.
If only my dad didn't brush his teeth, change his clothes, check if the house if secure, saved his time without yelling at me for about 5 minutes on how I'm rushing him and am irresponsible for not having anyone remind me earlier.
If only I wasn't me.

Light.

Let me pass through the gates.
Into the the light I stray.
First, let me find my way.
Everything's dark.

Cookies'n'Cream!<:]

I need to relax more... I'm always having the want to cry or hide in a hole. Today I broke down and vented to Jayson D.C.... I didn't mean to, but just at that moment in front of him, I couldn't help it. I need to do soemthing to help myself... I don't care about anything that ahs to do with me. I don't care about the well being of my body or the levels of tiredness, sickness, or illness that affects my body. Lately, I've been getting these chest pains that last 3-4 hours for the past 4 days. Today during 5th period Drake's English class I went to the front of the room to get a highlighter and then my head started throbbing. I gripped the counter next to the bin of highlighters. I thought the throbbing was gone a few seconds later but before I know it I took a deep breath in and AUGHS! The right side of my chest was constricting and I couldn't breath. I slid downwards on the counter and everyone started looking at me. Drake let me run to the bathroom where I had to catch my breath. Sighs. THat lasted for 3 1/2 hours. Sighs. You'd think that I couldn't go through with 3 1/2 hours but it only hurts the moment in the first hour. For the rest of the day I tried my hardest not stress myself out or do anything rigorous. When I got to the carousel around 5:30, I felt much better. But then my Mom had to call me and ruin it all. She was yelling at me that I shouldn't have came to the carousel and should've stayed home. Her exact words, "Your main priority right now should be to get better so you'll be healthy for playing at the Children's Thanksgiving, marching the Adult Processional, and just taking care of your own body. You never take care of yourself because you're too busy running around worrying about other people's problems and being there for others. People don't even care that they stress you out so what's your problem? What makes you think you could go to the carousel when you're sick and etc, etc..." And on she went from there. Sighs. It's whatever. So what if I'm sick? I'm at the carousel to be there as President. If I hate it when people don't show up for what they said they wuold be there for or whatever, what kind of example would I be if I don't show up myself? It's time to chill. I'm going to watch anime, eat chocolate, then eat the Portobella Mushroom pizza that Mum made. Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha.

People who made my day:
Travis Tran, Joanna Wu, and Mr. Wade Barringer. Thank you.

FAC.

How did I become President?

I literally am in love with Filipino American Club. It's my top priority in school besides my studies. The fact that we are not only promoting ourselves throughout our school but through the whole of Kent warms my heart. I can't believe it. With the help of God, Mr. Emerson, and my FAC officers, I don't think we would make it this far. I want to do so much more with us.

Goals:
-Spread to other schools. (Create Filipino Clubs over there!)
-Clean a river instead of a park.
-Provide provisions for hobos or poor kind people in Seattle.
-Find an orphanage and write letters to them from our very own clubmembers.
-etc.

This year helps me see that next year will be auspicious (promising well for the future. I need to expand more on my vocabulary haha. The end of 2009 is coming to a close fast. I got to start thinking of what my goals for 2010 wll be. AUGHS! Haha.

COME ON OUT TO THE CAROUSEL IN DOWNTOWN KENT THIS FRIDAY TO SUPPORT KM'S FAC!
Mr. Barringer, Principal of KM will be chaperoning from 4-6pm. We have Santa to help pass out candy canes and greet the kids from 4-6 also. Then hopefully if the librarian emails me back will be there also to give story time. Please and thank you!